my nightmare is coming

:~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ my feeling now … duno how many litres of tears I drop inside my heart now .. im just viewed my senior’s uni’slife … it is so so terrible . haih .. my another nightmare is waiting for me .. I couldn’t imagine it … y  y  y … now I reli salute those ppl who r so succeed in their life … Im so scare .. so doubt .. again lost my direction …local u ? private u ? local ? private ? haih … f6 I beh tahan oso .. uni life is another 10x terrible life .. may the f6 nightmare nv happened again . im looking forward for the good n happy life in uni .. how great is tat in my imagination ..y sudenli it broke ?? L if uni canot tahan .. how bout oversea ? damn it .. everything disappear in a second .. so sux man … any1 could tell me whether local n private uni benefits ? y so many things influencing me … altou there is time , but I dn1 at the end I made another big mistake again … oh no !!!!!!!! NEVER ! ..so lazy to continue liao .. moody .. i wan2make my mind clear again

对你的爱

闭上眼去感觉
淡淡的思念就很美
三月的微风
吹过秋飘过冬

睁开眼去体会
深深的烙印在心田
抬头望着天空
彷佛也飘荡着悸动

回忆在从前
从前只是不完美的恋
过往在哭曾经在笑
感动只是一种情绪的反覆
眼泪在昨天
昨天永远只是一个缺
如果只是如果我会期待
大声说出来
我想要的爱

学着抛开学会释怀
所有的决定我都明白
爱应该是要勇敢去追
就不后悔只要我不后退
真爱将会变的更美
回忆在从前
相信未来是完美的恋
我不会哭继续微笑
选择把对你的爱寄向远方
决定说再见
今天将会是最后一天
过去不是永远明天醒来
最初的期待
我最真的爱

 

so nice

i will be leaving soon

lolxxxxx ~~~~~~~~~~ i will be in west msia , mostly at kl / selangor since 20.12.2006 . who wants to find me just call me ^^ i won't be able to online for that time until i come back sdk again cox there is no telephone line and i don't think i will be free to go to cyber online .. I'll be back at Feb 2007 ^.^ miss u all and hope can meet friends who in kl de .... see ya ~~ tml i am going to tawau for two days after that might go to kk b4 going to kl ~~ travel is my hobby ..yuhhuu~~~ n shopping is my ....kekkkekeke ..use so many $$$$$$$$ alr ..  will be bankrupt after 01.01.2007 ..so many xmas sales , new year sales .. mega sales ... crazy sales .. coming soon is Chinese new year ..:~~~~~ $$$$ pls come to me .. have to work 10 partimes

Who wants to buy masks from taiwan or cosmetics from jp

who is interested with this can contact me or just ask from me . the price for sure will a bit expensive bcoz the post fee n oso there is many custom .. but i think it is worth to buy coz msia do not have it

finally .. the nightmare was ended

finally ... my nightmare was gone ... but .. still a little bit positive feeback .. i viewed my photos , burnt by my teacher , since the 1st day we entered lower six till the last day ...u could see all of that are smiling face .. but behind , how many tears , how many time desperate , dissapointed , upset .. who knows ? who cares ? this road was not easy , n finally i walked through .. my destination , is still far , but im on the way .. the other junction is in front .. haizzz... again i have to choose .... another nightmare begins...

Convo 14.11.2006

快要毕业了

终于。。明天到来了，一年半以来，最辛苦的一天，头脑用得最多的一天，脑筋最伤的一天，也是可以深深呼吸的一天，可是，这重要的一天，也可能改变我的人生，不容有失。。虽说要毕业了，但是真正的那一天，应该是 05 . 12 . 2006 , 4.30 pm .. 人生的路途，在这里休息了一会儿，往前的道路，我隐约看见，但我先不想继续，我要停下歇一会儿，就如古人所说，休息，是为了走更长远的路， 我很期待这样的一天来临，我有很多抱负，理想与热诚，这就是年轻的魄力，现代人，只有虚荣与富贵，繁忙的都市，灿烂的霓虹灯，或在当下，是享受还是无奈接受？ 不想长大，我终于体会到了，天真无邪的生活，就是人生，可是，科技的发展，时代的进步，社会的现实，这些无邪的笑容，为什么变成在等到重大的成就与表现上才能出现。小学7A,PMR 8 A ,SPM 12 A1 , STPM 4 flat , 甚至是大学的 1st class honour , 一生人就花这么多时间在这些，童年的记忆，顽皮的孩子，少之又少，反之，社会暴力，白领犯案，青年自杀，日夜渐增。。

 

 

 

少年的懵懂， 年轻的疯狂，热血的青年。。 我在体会。。

 

 

 

 

再续。。

its comin

stpm is coming on next mon !!!! everybody seems so nervous.... y am i so relax n free here ??????hmmm... wat to nervous ? wat to rush ? wat to worry ????? i doubt ..

 

 i just need luckssssss + a clear mind + a 1gb brain ram + oso my great hdd

 

good luck everybody .... im graduted !!!!!! but the way is still long n the road is getting tougher ==" ...exam is coming to me ,  holiday im coming to you !!!!!!!!! lolz

 

again .. we would say goodbye to anyone in stmary , upper sains1 , upper sains2 ... this frenship not too short , not too long , maybe it is good , coz i didnt feel any sadness from there .. but f6 life was a nightmare in my life ... hope this kind of thing never bother me .. i would never wanna get in it ..now im free from it .. the toughest memories , the worst life experiences , the most expensive life lessons , the most valueable frenship will be end at here .. im walking to my new life .. everything will be new .. so frens , we just stop at this junction , fly to your own direction .. you own your own

男生的分手信跟女生的回信

Dear
想向你辭去情人的職務，
任職一年多來，在崗位上我努力學習，克盡職守，
對你噓寒問暖，小心翼翼，揣測你的需要，滿足你各方面需求。
在感情提供你慰藉，讓你有被愛的感覺；
在行動上，等待、接送、陪伴、更只是基本工作。
雖不經手財務，卻要負起所有買單重責；
三不五時還要送禮討你歡心。
一個稱職的情人要溫柔體貼，還要心胸寬闊。
聽你提及對O的男人的大方及讚賞，不可以醋勁大發。
剛任職之時不知如何拿捏，犯了幾次錯誤竟敢與你鬧情緒
幾度你想把我開除，後來在我保證不再犯的前提下，
你勉強再給我觀察期。
這些時日以來，幾經思索，
感謝你給我這次機會。
但我確實不適任此職位，想向你申請調回朋友部門。
看你對那部門同仁有說有笑，三不五時還會請他們小聚一番，
有點羨慕他們：
上班時間彈性，不用隨 call隨到，不用接送，
不用買單，不用送禮，不用面對你冷漠一面，
可看到你陽光似的笑容，聽到你幽默言談。
而我雖佔了情人的缺，除了責任加重卻沒任何特殊待遇；
沒有甜言蜜語，沒有多一點關心，沒有禮物，沒有...
決定辭去這職務，至於你是否願讓我調部門，
一切尊重你的裁決
......

一個盡心盡力的員工 敬上

女生的回覆

Dear
關於您轉調部門的提議，經過董事家長會開會討論，以下決議事項向您說明:
因您當初面試時的職務為情人，標準與要求一開始就跟朋友不同，
雖然試用期間你的表現不好差點被開除 ，
但念在你苦苦哀求且信誓旦旦的說明你可以改進與昇任，
才予以留任。
情人屬於正職工作，與兼職的朋友部門不同，
當然責任與工作相對也比較多，
但是薪資及福利保證優於朋友部門，
情人有按摩、親親、抱抱、陪睡、陪同參予家庭聚會與煮宵夜的紅利與福利，
還有很好的升遷管道，可以升為老公、爸爸、阿公...等，
這些絕對都是朋友部門所沒有的。
最後，因目前朋友部門沒有職缺，情人又是重要職務，
因此在未尋獲新人或職務代理人並完成交接前，
先將您轉調到備胎部門，這個部門的人員不需要每天面對老闆，
應該可以暫時讓您的責任跟壓力不那麼大。
等情人職務有人可以交接時，可再將您轉調到地下情人部門，
當然若屆時朋友部門有缺也可轉調到朋友部門，或是您要離職也可以
，當然自動離職是沒有遣散費的。
謝謝您一年多來的努力
....
董事會成員代表 敬上

hopefully it will be a brand new day

tml sch reopen arrrrghh......so sien ..... n many many many lousy things still bothering me ...... sighhhhhhh im so frustrated larr .. pls pls pls...give me a new way .. leave those bad things ... i dn wan to get those anymore

sux streamyx

damn streamyx .. the service is sux sux sux !!! keep dc dc dc n  lag lag lag lag  .... call to complain no ppl pick calls ... announce that service upgraded but in fact the service was downgrade n super super super sux

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

TODAY IS CHEMISTRY PAPER .. I HAD STUDY ALL THE THINGS ( STILL GOT SOME THAT I HAVE NO TIME TO READ BUT OVERALL I DID ) , TODAY MY TEACHER GAVE SOME MORE TIPS , WHICH ARE '5 HARD 5 CHUT' ... SIGH .... MAKE ME RUSHHHHHHHHHHH TO REVISE AGAIN .. NOW MY BODY JUST LIKE JUST BACK FROM CLUBBING WHICH HAVING A RAVE PARTY AND JOGGING 10 ROUNDS ...... SO SOSOSOS EXHAUSTED .... HOPEFULLLY TML MY BRAIN CAN HAVE 1024MB RAM THAT FAST AND ALL MY OTHER HARDWARES COOPERATE WELL TOOO..... STPM RELI CRAZY MAN .... DAMN IT .THURSDAY WILL BE BIO PAPER .... WOW .. ANOTHER CRAZY SUBJECT... HORRIBLE ENOUGH ... MY LIFE ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

down

im not sure is it because holiday too long , once again i have too much time to think other silly and nonsense things .. but i really so depress . i had prepare my exam n start revision one month ago and now i reopen my book like i never learn n study before ,how sad is ths ? f6 reli crazy man .. it is sux .. somemore today i feel my biology teacher very bias .. haiz .. once again i feel dissapointed .. why i work hard for so long but i didnt get any feedback . m i doing nothing ? i lost my direction and meaning to go forward .. it seems all are nothing . i dont know i jealous or the teacher really bias , but she didnt let me feel that my hard work comes to a feedback , and she is so subjektive . since i started give up and somemore she didnt give me any encouragement , i really choose to give up . sometimes it maybe comes to another better circumstance if we cannot stand with it . besides that , i did a big careless mistake today . i guilty and regret but i had learnt from it too .. not really feel very sad about that atleast i know what i did wrong and i realized that , sometimes , i really wonder , is it exam can judge somebody's future ? it might be yes , but not definitely yes .. life .. what's going on next ? ... i doubt ..

你給別人的，其實是給自己

你給別人的，其實是給自己

不論你傷害誰，就長遠來看，你都是傷害到你自己，或釦A現在並沒有覺知，但它一定會繞回來。n凡你對別人所做的，就是對自己做，這是歷來最偉大的教誨。
不管你對別人做了什麼，那個真正接收的人，並不是別人，而是你自己；
同理，當你給予他人，當你為別人付出，那個真正獲利的也不是別人，而是你自己。


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某天，小張要去相親，因為沒有看過對方，擔心她長得太醜，於是交代朋友，十分鐘後call他的手機，這樣他就可以藉機遁逃。
到了約會地點之後，小張發現女方驚為天人，於是心想，等一下手機響不要回就好了。
沒想到，美女的手機這時候響了起來，美女聽了兩秒後，對小張說：「對不起，朋友有急事找我，我要先走了……」

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有一個男人在派對上對男主人說：「今天的美女真多，要是待會兒我泡上一個，你可不可以把樓上的房間借我一用。」
主人說：「那你老婆怎麼辦？」
這人說：「放心，她不會想念我的，我只失縱一下而已。」
主人說：「我不是說這個，我是說十五分鐘前，她才向我借了樓上的房間。」

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有一個老光棍，他並沒有什麼嗜好，只是喜歡在睡覺前喝一點葡萄酒自娛。
然而，他發現這幾天有人偷了他的酒。
他便懷疑偷酒的是他的佣人，於是就把酒倒出來，再裝入他的小便。
但裝小便的酒，仍然每天減少。他很不高興的把佣人叫來，責備一番。
「不，我並沒有偷喝」佣人說：「我是想做味道更香更可口的菜給您吃，
所以我每天燒菜時，都加了一點在裡面。」

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從這三則短文中各位有沒有發現什麼共通之處呢？
沒錯，你怎麼對別人，別人就怎麼對你；你給別人什麼，別人就回報你什麼。
說得更白一點就是，你給別人的，其實是給自己的。就像我在前面說過的，不管你丟出去什麼，或是想了、說了、做了什麼，最後都會回到你身上，不是嗎？你給別人的，其實是給自己。
自食惡果的事說都說不完，讓我們再聽下面的故事：
在一家簡陋的酒館裡，正在喝大杯啤酒的李先生，突然覺得內急，他匆匆忙忙站了起來，又想到上廁所時，酒可能被別人偷喝，猶豫一會後，他找到一張紙，寫上「我吐口水在這裡」，把它放在杯子下面，然後才放心的去上廁所。
過了幾分鐘後，李先生回來時，他看到另一張紙寫道：「我也吐了一口在這裡。哈！」

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從前有個人，他很不喜歡喝咖啡，但是他太太並不知道，他從來沒告訴過她。
她非常喜歡喝咖啡，所以每天早上都會順便為他準備一個熱水瓶的咖啡，跟他的便當礎b一起。n他一直都帶著那個便當和熱水瓶去工作，但是因為他很節儉，所以每天晚上都會把那個熱水瓶帶回家，裡面的咖啡完全沒有被動到。
他知道太太很喜歡喝咖啡，為了要省錢，所以當她沒看到的時候，他會將沒有喝的咖啡倒回咖啡壺裡。
晚上的時候他會用喝咖啡使他睡不著的理由把它推掉。
就這樣他每天都重複這麼做。有一天，她的太太認識了另一個男人，他們計劃好要毒害他，以獲取巨額的保險金，於是她每天早上都放少量的砒霜在他的熱水瓶裡，日復一日，直到最後她毒死了她自己。

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你給別人的，其實是給自己的。你說是不是呢？
你所給予的，都會回到你身上。
如果你對人冷淡，別人也會回以冷漠；
如果你經常批評別人，你也會接收到釵h的批評；n如果你總是瞻@張臭臉，沒錯，別人也不會給你好臉色。n所有你所給予的，都會回到你身上。
套句詩人奧登（W.H.Auden）的話：「人受惡意之作弄，必作惡以回報。」
如果你陷害別人，哪天你也會遭人陷害。
同樣的道理，當你帶給別人歡樂，你就會得到歡樂；
帶給別人祝福，你就會得到別人的祝福；
如果你經常讚美別人，不久你也會聽到有人在讚美你。
「你給別人的，其實是給自己的」
你讓他人經歷什麼，有一天你也將自己經歷；
你怎麼對待你的父母，將來你的孩子也會怎麼對待你。

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釵h人一定聽過，格林童話中有一則關於一位老人和兒子住在一起的故事。n老人的耳力已經不行了，眼睛也看不見，顫抖的雙手經常把飯菜洒得滿地，碗也常打破，兒子夫婦倆感到非常厭煩，給老爸爸一付木製碗筷，把他趕到廚房幽暗的角落，不准和大家一起用嚏Cn有一天，兒子看到自己的兒子用刀片消木頭，他好奇的問孩子要做什麼。
結果孩子回答：「我在替你準備將來要用的木碗、木筷。」
從此以後，年老的父親又回到嶽鄐W吃飯，家人也都非常孝順他。n
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農夫的哲理
地球是圓的，整個世界都在繞著圈子，不論你傷害誰，就長遠來看，你都是傷害到你自己，或釦A現在並沒有覺知，但它一定會繞回來。n所以，如果你佔了別人什麼便宜，先別得意，很快你就會為此付出代價；
反過來，若是別人對你做了什麼，你也無需氣憤，不必去報復，任何他們所做的，他們都將自食惡果。
「凡你對別人所做的，就是對自己所做的。」這是歷來最偉大的教誨。
不管你對別人做了什麼，那個真正接收的人，並不是別人，而是你自己；
同理，當你給予他人，當你為別人付出，那個真正獲利的也不是別人，而是你自己。
有一個農夫的玉米品種，每年都榮獲最佳產品獎，而他也總是將自己的冠軍種籽，毫不吝惜地分贈給其他農友。
有人問他為什麼這麼大方？
他說：「我對別人好，其實是為自己好。風吹著花粉四處飛散，如果鄰家播種的是次等的種籽，在傳粉的過程中，自然會影響我的玉米品質。因此，我很樂意其他農友都播種同一優良品種。」
他的話看似簡單卻深富哲理，凡你對別人所做的，就是對自己所做的。所以，凡事你希望自己得到的，你必須先讓別人得到。
【保證有效的秘方】
就像那個農夫一樣，如果你想要得到冠軍的品種，就要給別人冠軍的種籽。
你若想被愛，就要先去愛人；
你期望被人關心，就要先去關心別人；
你要想別人對你好，就要先對別人好。
這是一個保證有效的秘方，可以適用在任何情況。
如果你希望交到真心的朋友，你就必須先對朋友真心，然後你會發現朋友也開始對你真心；如果你希望快樂，那就去帶給別人快樂，不久你就會發現自己愈來愈快樂。
明白了嗎？我們所能為自己做的最好的事情，就是去為他人多做點好事。
己所欲，施於人。凡你想給予自己的經驗，就給予別人；想別人怎麼對你，就怎麼對待別人。


☆☆☆

世上只有快樂好，

快樂最好的方法是多好事，

要做好事最好的就是對別人好。

是的，對別人好，就是快樂，也是送給自己最好的禮物。

 

 

 

i want to add somemore here is that  what i gave my friends , all that are sincere and kind , i never think to get anything from them .. however , i get the worst consequences than ever . yet , i know , what i gave them , is the lesson to treat somebody sincerely while didnt hurt youself . i gave all the things with sincerely and at the same time , im unconsciously hurting myself , thats why , what my friends give me back was the hurts

Fear

i could feel it is coming , what is coming ? STPM lor .. ermm .. maybe i should say something that is in my life's third turning point . well .. although i always said that it does not a big probelm , but if i can did well , it will be a big good result for me .. but how good is good leh ? i doubt . many ppl said i didnt work as hard as i should/ i could , but i feel i done my best wor .. i just dont want to be too stress , it is really tension and i try to make it easy , im just do what my ability afford to do , yeah , i can do better , why dont i ? cause i  dont want my life so tension lor .. it is mentally stress ok ? nobody knows how hard you every try , but they just physically see how bad are you , keep blaming or critic , but they never think another way round , i might did worse than now . sigh .. but  i really could feel the coming of it . i want to work hard from now !! i'll never know how much , how hard i did , but i have no regret before and after cause i already did what i afford to do , compared to other or not , i feel im more lucky and hardworking , there is nothing can destory your life or your future because it is in your hand and there are still many roads and ways in front of us , why should we think it negatively ?  i believe , if we never give up , there are still chances . you might miss it once , but there are still many in front of us , as long as you never regret the chances you had miss out . i hold my chance now , i never give up and i keep climbing up , i never want to miss it  ,  im chasing it ..  my responsibility , my chance , my target , my greedy , my priority .. STPM phobia , STPM nightmare , im sure would beat it down with my best try .. i have no fear .. lets work together buddies ~

我

我是个极嫉妒心高的人。我很自私，我早就发觉这一点，我现在回想我身边的朋友大概都很不喜欢我这点吧，可是谁不自私的，为什么我不能自私？为什么我一定要对别人好，可是却换来别人的冷眼相待。我真心付出，诚恳对待别人，我不望回报，可是为什么给我报复？这是我应该得到的吗？我在犹疑，是我内疚？还是我不想历史再次重演？不想再发生的可怜结局，不想再次经历。我肯定，我的朋友一定再次说我死性不改，他们觉得不对的是我，而我，一再地为自己的错在辩护，掩饰，从不知悔改。这也是我心淡的一点，原来我是这么不值得被别人掩护。我该清醒，还是继续沉寂下去？不是我昏倒，而是我从来都醒不来。我一再地维持这些友情，这也是他们所谓的冷血吗？自私吗？是我在等待下次机会再去占我的朋友的便宜吗？我在等待机会利用我所谓好的朋友吗？我就是他们眼中的这种人。我不想再与我的朋友相遇，即使是擦身而过，或是远远相望，是我没有勇气去面对了，还是我不想看见我不想看见的那一幕？我很害怕遇到这些情况，因为不好的事情中会成真，更不好的事情总是意料之外。我希望一切都可以快点有个断点，就让一切平静下来吧，我恐怕不再有任何勇气与信心了。我已选择走另一条路，我希望我的路能由我的掌控，愿我的道路上不再与他们相遇，给我有走下去的力量，离开我吧。这是一场恶梦，最近又回来了。感觉是陌生人，可是却又那么地熟悉。我恨不得想把记忆里的都删除掉。我了解当不再有感情了，连回忆都是种负荷。我就是一直背负着这些负荷，越背越累，使我无法呼吸。人心啊，是那么的脆弱，也那么地无可预测

im back ~

phiew~~~~~~~~~~~~ take a deep breath first ... finally my trial had gone ~~ hahahaha .. stress pls .. er. ..but actually not really also geh .. coz jz randomly study what im interestiing and im very du lan with my teachers liao too .. coz they kept rush all the syllabus while we never could catch 'em up .. so . they rush i rush too .. they want done their works with this kind of ' reponsibility' thus i jz did my 'reponsibility' like this too ..  i dislike this school , ppl , management as well .. too tension .. too stress , not a good place to get knowledge . not every teachers r dedicate , although what they teach , what they did for us , they feel that tats all what they can do for us , ow our own good , but they 4got one thing , they miss a thing , we are not wanna all the knowledge from the books only , besides that , we need how to be a individual who is able to stand in the society , we should learn how to communicate with other , the way we have our experience in our life , not only those theories and concepts from books , this is what i cannot learn from my school . coming soon is our semester two final year end exam again , but i think , there will be a lots of tests , intensive weekly tests b4 final exam comes .. sigh .. this is what my schoo did  .. the tradition .. im really dissapointed with the msia education system .. so noob .. and also our new bak lah .. aihs... y arr .. i wonder who is the next prime minister and wat would happen to msia .. poorer and poorer .. argh ..  but before i could tackle with tat , i shud be able tackle with my stduy currently . 94 days left to go to stpm .. i still doubting what shud i do ? i admitted that this trial i reli didnt care much on it .. hehe .. coz it was a stpid exam .. i dont think this can reflect what would happend in my stpm .. honestly , this trial was not test for our understanding n preparation for exam , but test for how great is ur memorizing ability and ur high IQ and ur intelligence .. lolx .. 4 days to stduy all the subjects , yes , there is a human could do that , but how 'high' is the probability to find such human leh ? i doubt it . im aggresive , but i want to enjoy my life ttoo . but seniors would say no free meal in this world , if u never tatse bitter , u would never what is sweet , u should sacrifice before u succeed . yes , i know that and i accept it . but when i saw so many people suffer and get tension , i doubt there will be a better way in front of them . everything has its limit , it depends how you go through . our life is a plain paper  , it depends how we make it coulourful .. everybody hopes it will be as colourful as it can , or even better than other . but .. it is not a simple task lor .. i cannot wait for my coming long holiday , but before it comes , i have to suffer for 94 days ++ 3 weeks guar ... some people said that not really a great graduated caould earn big money , or very succeed in ife , but i dont think that never educated/ low educated could as succeed as the other . ya there are ppl did that , but how many r they ? im not looking down the other , but , we should be appreciate that nowadays we could havin education .. maybe some of them never experience thus they never how is that feeling .. this is what people called ' learn from experience ' . hence , no experience before , so we could never learn . hahahah .. but if we got the experience , we would regret what we had done .. lolx ........ tml .. 14.08.2006 , i will start my hard jobs again till tthe end of my exam !! a zA a Za fighting !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! n again .. i disconnect with here :~  but i have no regret ...  hehehe ~

arGH!!

she reli a big bitch n the worst old woman .. we hate her so much coz her mouth is the smellest in the world too. she is perfectism .. eat shit .. curse her never cant marry ... n get a big fail in her life !!!!!!!!

perpaduan kat msia

http://www.merdekareview.com/video.php

beginikah kamu orang melayu bersatu padu antara kaum ? atau kamu saja bersatupadu antara orang melayu ? begitukah kebijaksanaan kamu semua dalam malaysia sedangkan kamu memiliki ' hak keistimewaan ' ? itu kah kami orang cina menikmati 'hak keistimewaan' daripada kamu ? oh .. kalau begitu , kamu memang "bijak" lar .. dan kamu orng ni memang obesiti , sebab kamu makan sampai kenyang dan tiada kerja lain buat dan kamu hendak membuat sesuatu untuk ' berkorban' demi negara kamu . kamu ni mau jadi pelakon yg mewatakkan perwatakan gangster dalam universiti tempatan . dan dengan ini , kamu dapat mengharumkan nama besar kamu dan nama baik universiti kamu . baik lagi pergi bertanding kat malaysian idol atau AF .. cepat saja terkenal dengan aksi tangan dan dialog kamu tu

tolong!!!!!!!!!!!!

who comes to save me ? i dont know im tire , or i lazy . or... i oso duno wat happened .. i am a lost soul .. so lazy ahhh ...... if there is a medicine which once i consume i can be repowerful again .. how good is that ....... i need spirits , i nit enegry ....... tml will be a busy day again ... :~~~~~~~~~~~~~

13/7/06

Whether your strength is as a sprinter or marathon runner, today you definitely have what it takes to go the distance. Don't shy away from any type of challenge, not matter how out of your element you may feel or how risky the stakes may be. It's time to just go for it -- see how you handle a new situation. This is a form of self-education, and a wonderful way to show people what a good sport you are. You don't need to prove anything to anyone, so just roll with it and see what happens.

心乱如麻

假使你是觉得怯懦,你会不会拒绝我,你有意欲去找我,你会通电再会过,如实在认真喜欢我,或者有心敷衍我如今,只有三岁都清楚.是你不想我啦,什至不找我啦,无非几天变化就像刮我几千巴,不想和我好,求直说真话.很想你是爱得懒惰,至会多天不理我,心境正遂秒钟跌堕,我哪一样有做错.如今的我只要知清楚.没有胆色缠你心乱如麻,回去吧..来让我伤口结疤 .. janice

horoscope today .. exactly with my situation today :~

Indecision is something you must watch out for very carefully today. There are many options for you right now, which is undeniably a good thing. But this embarrassment of riches could be paralyzing if you don't approach it wisely. Going back and forth between options (and trying them on for size) is only going to be a waste of time. You need to check with your gut instincts, and commit right away to one path. Any doubt you feel after you make your choice is just that -- doubt. Keep going.

 

 

SOB !!!!!!

愛得太遲

最心痛是 愛得太遲 有些心意 不可等某個日子
最可怕是 愛需要及時 只差一秒 心聲都已變歷史
錯失太易 愛得太遲 我怎想到

再也沒法說鍾意 愛一個字 也需要及時只差一秒
心聲都已變歷史 為何未放肆
見我愛見的雙至   不要相信一切有下次

相擁我所愛又花幾多秒  這幾秒能夠做到又有多少
未算少 足夠遺憾忘掉 

多少抱憾 多少過路人
太懂估計卻不懂愛錫自身  

人人在發奮 想起他朝都興奮
但今晚未過 你要過也很吸引
縱不信運你不過是人

 你想很遠愛於咫尺卻在等
來日別操心 趁你有能力開心
世界有太多東西發生 不要等到天上苦困

in the door way

I lie awake at night ,see things in black and white ,I've only got you inside my mind nomatter day or night ,u know u’ve made me blind ?  I lie awake and pray that you will look my way , I have all this longing in my heart , I knew it right from the start . Oh my pretty pretty boy I like u lk I nv ever loved no one b4 u . pretty boy of mine just tell me you love me too .. jz let me inside make me stay right beside you , I used to write your name n put it in a frame . u stay a little n see me with your smile . n what can I say to make you mine 2reach out for you in time ..很想说你是否听见了很想说我们可不可以. 直到爱消失你才懂得去珍惜身边每个美好风景.那么爱他为甚么不把他留下为甚么不说心里话你深爱他。是不是有深爱的两个他所以不想再让自己无法自拔？我不要你在我身边却看着蓝天不看我的脸.我但愿你快乐的飞,将来要相爱都还有时间.风开始在吹孤独好直接爱最苦的是不能相依偎,然而我会等着你.最深的温柔是成全,我张开双臂任凭你来回,最痛的时候就思念,扎了根的心,不可能撤退.我不快乐因为看见脸上的笑是很勉强的.我很想爱他,但是眼睛在说谎,隐瞒比较容易吧,免得感情变得复杂,但是理智在吵架,退出可以解围吗?谁能给我一个好的回答;爱情是模糊的,可怜的是没有勇气选择,如果再舍不得,这样下去我们每个人都是受害者.当爱情陷在危险边缘,是否都会伤痕累累,是否都会苦不堪言?爱情教会我们都放不下

 

 

 

 

fr

I lie awake at night
See things in black and white
I've only got you inside my mind
You know you have made me blind

 

I lie awake and pray
That you will look my way
I have all this longing in my heart
I knew it right from the start

 

Oh my pretty pretty boy I love you
Like I never ever loved no one before you
Pretty pretty boy of mine
Just tell me you love me too
Oh my pretty pretty boy
I need you
Oh my pretty pretty boy I do
Let me inside
Make me stay right beside you

 

I used to write your name
And put it in a frame
And sometime I think I hear you call
Right from my bedroom wall

You stay a little while
And touch me with your smile

And what can I say to make you mine
To reach out for you in time

 

Oh my pretty pretty boy I love you
Like I never ever loved no one before you
Pretty pretty boy of mine
Just tell me you love me too
Oh my pretty pretty boy
I need you
Oh my pretty pretty boy I do
Let me inside
Make me stay right beside you

 

Oh pretty boy
Say you love me too

 

Oh my pretty pretty boy I love you
Like I never ever loved no one before you
Pretty pretty boy of mine
Just tell me you love me too
Oh my pretty pretty boy
I need you
Oh my pretty pretty boy I do
Let me inside
Make me stay right beside you

chances

yeah .. last day saw friends lost their chances .. but sometime it is not hold in our hand .. although it is used to be said catch up the chances ... sometimes i afraid of tat too coz i duno when the chances pass by and went off ... it reli nth can do with it .. coz ... thr r still many doubts , factors .. that keep influecing us .. there r evils .. making us to be more greedy .. :~~ and who is the one who really can help us ? who is the one that never miss out something ? maybe .. i need this kind of ppl ..  i am greedy , i admitted .. but .. majority .. same too .. but wats wrong with it ? maybe they just wan to get things that belong to each other

i rmb it ..

think for so long wat i want to write ... im back to ICQ .. lol .. but still got friends online there but some r missing .. lolx ... erm .. saw a lots of old things , texts , stufss .. many many lar .. make me think back my life in the past .. haha .. st.micheal 3a 4as1 5as1 .. wow .... but now .. i wan to share to u all wat i met in stmary and my memories in there ... 5b 5h 5m 6rs1 6as1 .. this numericals arr ... friends that i had meet in stmary ... some are intelligent , some are handsome .. some are friendly .. some are abnormal sometimes ... but conclusion .. they are friendly .. mild .. feeling no attacks or hurts to make friends with them .. im just as young as them too la... form 5 stage here too ..lolx .. but not really know all of them too .. and hope to know them too .. know him too .. know her too .. oh ya .. a guy from the form 4 too .. almost be the star of marians liao .. coz handsome lor .. lolx .. i also surprise why will i get know to him .. yeah .. this is what people called as ' fate' mah .. dont jealous lor ..hehe .. but one of thing i realized recently .. i missed out something too ..aihss. . how stupid am i .. never alert about that .. erm .. but actually i alerted of that from the 1st time i saw that people too .. but .. dont know why i almost know tat people'friends liao but i still cant get him too .. an unique human ... so this is what people called as ' yau yuen mou fan ' ?? pity nia ... 4months left .. everybody gonna say goodbye to each other... phiew ... another sad thing too .. must a lots of memories in photos or anywhr at the end of the year ^.^ ... where will we go ? still a doubt ...

 

 

()&^%@##$%^&*()&*^%!@#$%^&*)(*&^%$# my brain getting blank ...

breathing

first night i am so free since school reopen ... seems like did nothing just now .. erm ... read while about maths .. did my library reports .. thats all .. really did nothing ... so .. how will be tommorrow ? hopefully still sun shining .. a very good day .. omg .. just remember again .. wednesday will having PA test .. sigh .. boring topics + many many to memorize ... i hate that .... another good news to share is i got the scholarship for preparation o local uni .. it seems just a little amount .. ya .. it is few .. but , the happy thing here is not the amount , but the chance , the lucky i got .. it is really really impossible to get .. in a school ... 1st must be bumi 2nd must be low income salary family 3rd result improve or good or distinction ..i am sure all of the chinese have to qualified 1st of all of the rule .. lolxxx ... same thing here ...my school only me a chinese got that .. i appreaciate a lot and thank for the god who bring me this lucky thing .. but hopefully the luckier things would come to me ...

sien sien sien

this afternoon i'm just suddenly remember tomorrow is chemistry paper test ... really boring ahhh ... .always tests or exam only ...... when is the time understand the books' contents ? when is the time to do homeworks ? when is the time to relax ?  sigh .... stupid education

modern love

“我在你的眼中看到泪水，所以我懂得，有时人生中痛苦，流泪也是一件好事。” “虽然现在很痛苦，没有言语能够表达，但是相信很快一切都会随风逝去。” “—500万年是一个轮回，500万年后你如果你再遇见我，转身就逃吧，因为500万年后，我还会爱着信。 —500万年后，我还会在这里等着你。” 挥不去的是小律那深情而忧郁的眼神，为爱痛苦却得不到的痴痴守望的神情，挥不去那张漫画式的花一样的迷人面孔——百合王子的贵气的脸； 忘不掉的是信太子孤自抱着小熊盘坐喃呢的无助的背影，将彩京紧紧搂在怀里的如冰山下火种般的热情，忘不了信的眼泪——一个冷酷王子的眼泪。 “我好想你，即使天天看着你，还是好想你。”这是怎样的一种感情，冷酷的外表下的一颗温热的心。爱侣之间唯有坦诚说出彼此的爱慕，才能避免误解，告白是彼此相爱者之间互赠的最好的礼物——深深打动爱人的心，也感动我们这些旁观者的心。 500万年的守候，又是怎样一种感情，明朗俊美的外形下的一个执著爱情的灵魂。 每个人的爱情旅途上总会遇到这样两个人——爱你的人和你爱的人。我相信，你爱的人会爱上你，而爱你的人也会成为你心灵的依靠，就像信和律。于是在爱情的剧本中，有了你生命里的男一号和男二号。 男一号是你爱情的向往，你的目光、你的心情，无时无刻不追随着他的足迹； 男二号或许是你最好的异性知己，你是他世界中的阳光，他会承担你的眼泪、分享你的快乐——特别是你和你的阿波罗的点滴，他往往像你感情故事的纸篓，像你闺房中的毛绒狗狗，静静地倾听你的心事，你却忽视了他的感受，你获得了倾诉后的轻松，而他却越来越沉重，无法愈合的伤痛。 “我的小律受伤了！”这是我们屋一个女孩常常发出的感慨，她是个善良的女孩，因此她常常沉溺在对男二号的迷恋之中。 男二号的确很迷人，女孩往往是感性的，女孩往往口是心非，女孩痴迷于自己心中的阿波罗，女孩感动于为自己默默付出的男孩，女孩在阿波罗甚至连一个Goodbye-kiss都没有乘着金色马车扬长而去的时候，女孩是伤心的，是脆弱的，而男二号的悉心体贴，温存的眼神，有谁能够拒绝，有哪个女孩能够不为之动容呢？痴情的、深情的、拥抱伟大爱情的男孩，总是那么令人着迷，即使女孩的心早已给了另一个人，女孩还是难以割舍与男二号比友情更深一层的眷恋之情、依恋之情，因为他能让女孩爱着一个人的疲惫的心找到一个休憩的港湾，简单宁静而又温暖舒适，男二号总是默默的守护着他心中的女孩，就像守望着天使的海豚。 爱情是个曼妙的东西，当爱降临的时候，能让人变得勤劳而又温柔，这被称之为“爱情的力量”！爱情不该变成畸形的占有，爱情应该是一种彼此的爱慕、彼此的关怀、彼此的理解、彼此的信任、彼此的祝福。爱情本是长久时，又岂在朝朝暮暮。 今天听说，一个男孩因为她女朋友考研失败，就甩了她。义愤填膺！室友说，这种人，最好的办法就是女孩好好努力继续考研，考到男孩所在的学校，找个比男孩好得多的人，气死那男孩！那女孩的自身条件还不错，长得很淑女，而男孩甚至连身高上都不如女孩，除了那男孩是名校的，女孩在一般的大学。非常气愤！名校就了不起了吗，女孩性格太好了，要是其他人，哼……落井下石，考研的失败可以成为分手的理由吗，女孩自己一定已经很难过了，那种人，这么可以雪上加霜呢？这不是爱情，不要也罢！ 电视剧里的爱情，总是那般纯净、那般美好，或许不过是理想吧！于是，有了影视剧的魅力，有了人们迷恋的理由。现实中极端的爱情案例，影视中迷幻的爱情神话，现实与理想的落差，生活与想象的反差，成就了现代人的双重个性：一面是对于梦境的迷恋与向往，一面是对于现实的无奈或反叛。人们把善的一面写入影视艺术，在生活中理解和适应现实的世界。在夜灯下看梦境在眼前上演，是何等的惬意！ 《宫》的出现，让我真正体会到影视剧梦的艺术。它讲述的是一个假设的传奇。 韩国人有着很会幻想的个性，有着非常细腻的内心情感，懂得生活，懂得爱，这些性格写入了韩剧。新韩剧比起旧韩剧有着很大的进步，韩国人发挥了更大的想象空间，虽然帅哥美女的组合依旧——这是韩剧的亮点，就像少女漫画，唯美派的！但是，剧情上不再是以悲剧——主人公一方的死亡收尾，喜剧性的情节、大团圆的结局似乎更迎合中国观众的口味！干净纯美的画面，也是韩剧的魅力。我常常觉得，韩剧是情感化的剧种，如果一定要给韩剧颁奖的话，那么最优秀的不是导演，不是编剧，而是摄影！其次是乐师，韩剧的悠扬旋律，总是令人难以忘怀，并且跟情节配合地完美无瑕！这也可见韩国人的细腻之处。 《宫》，虚构了一个巨大的时代背景——假设2006年的韩国是君主立宪制的国家，有着李姓皇室，高大深沉的皇太子与天真单纯的贫民女孩，接受了上上代人的安排，结为夫妻，原本不合的两个人，在摩擦碰撞中产生了爱情，爱情改变了彼此，现代版的王子与灰姑娘的爱情童话，加上俊美小王子的介入，一切愈加迷幻……三角形是几何图形中最稳定的，两个人的爱情有了第三个人的介入是一种考验，更是一种促进。两男一女的组合，永远是影视剧中最精彩的因素，也是女孩们都梦想的一种状态。于是，女孩最爱做的梦拼合在一起，就是这部《宫》的故事。也算是，为我们无趣的生活“注入一点新的活力”，展开想象吧！……

NEVER GIVE UP

omg ... local uni application was out !! heard so many things ... so scare aaa ..... although not those hot courses , but even normal courses still , got ppl cant get ... but noen of my biznez of tat ... n i do more research .. n then ... aiiihh ... tat is a fact , reli a truth !!! pharmacy and medic in all the popular local uni in msia are all 4 flat students !!!!!!!!WAKS!!!!!!!!!! how can i survive n compete with them while im so lousy at here +chinese + my cocum so inactive + im sabahan + stpm candidate !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 4 flat oso useless ... shit!!!!!!!!! wat to do ????????????? im reli dissapointed ... aiihhhh ...... have to think what else to fill in my 8 choices thr ......... reli no more excuse for myself ... study hard * infinity oso not confident , not sure , no confirm ........ no more lazy , no more reason , no more stress as excuse .... work for it for my smooth road !!! 5 mths to boost it up ........................... amen

new sem new sem

new sem is starting !!! phewwittt~~~ suffer days lor .. wat else .. all subs rush rush rush ... have to stduy daily now reli ... gambateh ~~~ 4 mths left ~~ wuahahaha

sch reopened

sien sien sien .. this is my conclusion on my 1st day sch reopened .. nyiak sai reli !!!!!!!!!!!!!! akS ! 1st day alr annoounced that exam is coming on ogos ... puiks .. wan die pls .. report card not yet get , exam papers are coming back ... exam is coming .. everything  rush rush rush .......... breathless .. aiya ... never give up .. ?? who knows ... stduy hard play hard .. i enjoy my 2 weeks holiday .. but b4 that , i promised to enjoy till the end but once sch reopen , 4 mhs left , to work hard till the end too ~~ lol ~ this is life ...

 

im quite ... bler .. duno how to express my feeling ..so complicated . i think i did the best in that papers , but , quite motionless when tat woman said like tat . erm .. yap , i agree , tat is not good enuf , but tat is wat can i do for the best i could so far .. keep on improve is my goal .. who is born to be a genius ? i hate ppl judge a human with this attitude .. jiak sai .. i just wan to be humble . mute . live peace ^^ ~ im greedy , im hoping , im expecting too .. but i have my way to cool down myself when i met failure .. its ok bcoz no 1 is perfect ~~~~~~~~~ DO THE BEST ~

complicated

aihhh... the stress is coming near n near ... feeling unbreathable ... -.- sudenly rmb my fren studying in kk .. din realized at all anything during holidya ..reli a great holiday .. i miss my exclassmates a lot .. haha .. duno y .. but they are all really energized , competeable .. they r so so strong in stduy .. it is quite fun if studied together with them ..  good competers ... erm .. maybe i can undertsood their stands when they r so great b4 , now , n future they r big trees and im small grass only .. but they do not look me down but actually they r protecting me / us below them .. sigh .. it seems i cannot find such population in my sch now .. im hoping my coming uni environment would be look lilke how ... im so desire the day is coming .. desiring that it will be another new thing in my life

wonderful night

well well.. yesterday was a very busy day ..erm.. i mean im busy watching tv .. haha .. 1st .. leehom got the best male singer .. phiew~ he is reli reli handsome and talent .. perfect man yea ~ congrat ~ his album this time is reli nice .. he deserved it .. n the others shows were also great .. yo yo ~ 2ndly .. england won wc ..im not reli know wat was happening but i reli feeling excited when england won 1-0 till the end ~ maybe this hot team is desevered to support by all the ppl in the world and they are reli have their efforts ..but .. now .. 23 hrs 15 mins left will be my dead day ... no no no suffer days .. aiihh .. it is coming nehh ...

its coming

world cup came . my sch reopen date is coming soon too . suffer days are coming too .. waks! my fren is right , suffer day is begin ... sien sien sien ... havent get ready yet .. sigh .. reli so tension to think that .. 174 days to go .. * DEEP BREATHING *

成熟的愛情觀

單身，有時不一定是貴族。單身也許會比較自由，但自由也有一個同義詞叫寂寞。
因為人不是什麼時候都喜歡一個人獨處的；有時好東西需要跟人分享，有時候難過需要人安慰。

單身貴族產生的原因，是因經濟上的獨立、人上的獨立以及感情上的獨立。
獨立是什麼？獨立是需要而不依賴，一個獨立的人需要異性，而不依賴異性。

做情人之前，他應該先是朋友。
他成為你的朋友之後，出現在你的生活裏，才有可能認識你、了解你、知道你的長處而對你產生好感，進一步發展感情，變成情人、對象。

世界上的顏色並非只有白色和黑色，黑與白之間還有很漫長的灰色地帶。只要多相處，便能發現對方的優點、產生好感，這才是發展感情的自然過程。
『一見鍾情』以及『從一而終』的感情是不切實際的，我們需要的不是這種不切實際而虛幻的感情。

有人形容跟異性交往，就好像在海邊撿石頭，大家都會撿喜歡的那一顆。一旦撿到一顆你最喜歡的石頭，便把它帶回家去，好好對待它，因為那是妳唯一的石
頭。而且要記住，從此後不要再到海邊去。
(永遠相信，我已經找到最大、最美、最適合我的那一顆）跟異性交往最重要的不是他有多好，而是他對你有多好。

一個人如果條件很好，有一百分，可是這一百分之中，他只給你三四十分，或一二十分；相反地，另一個人也許只有七八十分，可是他卻是全心全意的對待你，那你應該選擇那一個？
其實，每一個人的條件都是一樣的。不管你有多好，都還有人比你更好。你雖然做不到一個『最好的人』，可是你卻做得到一個『對對方最好的人』。

每一個男孩子都可以說：『雖然我不是世界上最好的男人，但我是世界對妳最好的男人』。
反過來女孩子也是一樣，這是每一個人都做得到的。感情最重要的是在於他對你的好，而不是他自己有多好。

但是如果有一個人本身已經很好了，對你又是真心真意，真心愛你，那麼你真的可以把一生托付給他。
現在女性考慮婚姻的唯一條件，應該就是你愛不愛他，他愛不愛你，是不是真心真意對妳，跟他在一起會不會有壓力，會不會快樂，而非他有什麼！

人間的真愛是很難得的。在人的一生中，很難找到一個妳真正愛，真正可以跟他過一輩子的人如果你怯於表達，或害怕會有什麼事，錯失一輩子可能只有一次的真愛，那就太可惜了，所以一定要採取主動，把心裏的話說出來。
如果一個男孩子因為女孩子對他採取主動而看不起她，那麼這個男孩子不是男生，而是畜生。更何況，幸福比面子重要，如果犧牲一時的面子可以換得一生的幸福，是非常值得的，勇敢把心裏的話說出來，不要隱藏自己的真心。

千萬別說緣份未到，其實緣份到處都有，但卻是稍縱即逝，如果『緣』不及時把握，那就沒有『份』了。
大多數的女性對感情是偏重於精神，男性則偏於物質。男孩子除了對女孩子殷勤體貼外，也要學會對女孩子負責任，要將對天下所有女孩子的殷勤體貼，全部用來對一個女孩子。

另外剛毅木納並不能討女孩歡心，所以要學習對女孩子甜言蜜語，多說好話。
男人，為性而愛；女人，為愛而性。一個維持起來輕鬆、愉快的感情容易長久！

一個維持起來艱難而痛苦的感情不易長久，這時後就應該有所選擇。
我們都是凡夫俗子要的是平凡幸福並且快樂的愛情。對所有的感情而言，過程遠比結果重要。為什麼？因為所有的感情都是沒有結果的。

什麼是結果？結婚嗎？結婚之後就過著幸福快樂的日子嗎？可見我們不以感情的痕跡來評斷它的價值感，情也不以時間的長短來論定它的價值。
對感情而言，凡是發生過的都存在，凡是存在過的都有價值。世界上的感情每一段、每一分、每一秒都是值得珍惜的。婚姻是人生裏最大的一場賭局。

사랑해요

사랑해요 if u know this . nice language than others

get ready

wAKS! holiday so fast finished !! still in holiday mood nehh .. but .. the 6 months left shud be finished faster too .. it is time to back to study mood ! just warm up .. shud be happy to back to sch ? i never feeeling happy to back to school .. muahaha .. maybe shud be tension a bit . wondering the 1st how is the assembly , quite curious how the lower gonna die , i swear i will never help them , some i would , those who tot they better enuf , hoping them to suffer till the end .. wondering hows th exam paper , well well .. failed with a super duper marks~ even do not fail , but .. hmm ... not as good as where too :p sigh .. live peace :) get the right way ..do the better of better .. a za a za fighting

phiew ~ still pending

jz saw my fren's nick , next monday is suffering day begin , well my suffering days will be begin on next next monday too .. aRGH ~ finally , thought back , i pass 1.5 yr in my sch .. huh ? how im survive from it a ? i not reli rmb wat was happened when the 1st day , but the feelin on the first was still here . shud i enter herE ? i shudnt . im still regret . but if i could choose again , sure i wont choose it again . but , i think the probability i do it again , yes . many many other factors influenced me .. i doubted . wat shud i do ? whr shud i go ? when shud i do ? how shud i do ? sigh .. still many question marks .. WAKS! still blur , still confusing , still no idea , still no certain directions ..  well .. listening my favourite radio program .. cant think other thing ~ to be continue then ..

horoscope 02.06.2006

A gift you're given has big responsibilities attached, but don't let that stop you.

In Detail

A powerful person will come into your life bearing gifts, and there may be some big strings attached, so don't let your gratitude fog your skepticism. Ask a few questions and get to the bottom of their newfound generosity. You'll soon see that the responsibilities laid out in front of you are ones you could really sink your teeth into. Don't be afraid to be up-front about your reservations, but if you're ready for a chance to show your worth, this is it!

 

i think quite accurate .. i met the powerful person .. it brought me alot of new knowledges .. i asked a lot .. im getting ready to show my worth .. ^^ hopefully

i found a ppl jus like me ^^

well.. im just like u right now .. haha .. i think i wont give up to go to medical field lo if i cannot enter local1 .. i think now most ppl who would like to 'eat gov rice' so they will go to f6 lor , coz all local uni only accept f6 , instead of matrix .  n now i had no regret n nth i could/have to regret too coz i left 6 mths to go .. lOL .. im just pity for those coming generation who their family could not support them to go private u in medical fields n then they have to hide their talent in this field .. how pity is that .. just like me , b4 f6 , i reli not confidence to go to private to take the medical sub coz tat tution fee aa ... waKS.. i try to count , i might not be able to earn back those money to my family .. lol .. but wat to do.. i bet with myself . goin to alevel o foundation , n goin to my way . but if my foundation or alvl fail , then how , cant go in local u then . but if stpm , if i could not go in med field , then go to be a teacher lor .. o other lor .. still save .. but i think i wont .. coz have a goal in life better than doubting ..  wat i learnt in this 1 yr f6 is blif in urself , not to listen to ur mates who trying to seduce u , reli have to be strength n not influenced easily by the others .  i duno why is it , maybe we r not close enuf , so im still aware them . but some of them , it is reli so obvious . they might try to persuade u not to study so hard , this n that , n then they did what they advised u not to do .. haha .. luckily , im strong enuf . or maybe they envy ? hmm .. im just do my best , keep encourage all of them to study hard , keep give them guidelines ,  lending homeworks for those who r weak but hardwork , keep teach to my big competers/enemies/ppl who dislike me . i made a wish , i just wan to live peace in f6 . i did my best , nomatter i fail o pass , tats my efforts . marks would never certified me .. but if can get good mark then good lar .. haha

stpm2

last time , i heard so many ppl said that f6 is a good way , i considered too , ya , not bad . but , tat time just too naive , it is becoz the course n local u which i wan after it . im still in the conjunction n do not hav any idea whr to go after f6 . finally came into f6 too . after the 1st monthly tests , i know how gud m i , how shud i survive in f6 . i nv expect i could get the local u i wan ,with the course i wan ^^ im not surrender , just not to dissapointed too much . n if my attitude such as this could got that , i think i shud guilty , not im not hardworkin , just there r still many many ppl who more more hardworking than me ^^ they r more deserve it . im bio students . i duno how tough is physics students , im not sure how better is their ways when choose course after stpm , but i think bio students tougher .. since many news about bio students could not get dr. so on courses even 4 flat .. it is so dissapointed .. n this is wat i hate in msia edu gov .. i still rmb what my teacher told me , i asked him at 1st , if i got 4 flat , then do i have chance to get my course n the local u i wan ? n his answer is so perfect , he said : there is not only u who get 4 flat , but still many many who more more distinction compared with u. after this , i  neva dream n talk n swear to get 4 flat alr .. haha .. im not give up , but im just ppl who just do my best n never regret . although i wont be the best , but if i did my best , n the result is like tat , i deserved it , then it is the best in myself alr ..

so i would like to say tat , come into f6 or not , make ur decision , work for it , do ur best , no regret . nothing is good nothing is bad in the world , depends how u decorate it . if u fail in f6 , i don think it will judge/fix ur whole life ^^

STPM

it is true , STPM is tough ; it is true , SPM , PMR , UPSR are a piece of cake . but after stpm , if im in university ,n i look back , i would shout on those f6 students or lower .. OMG .. STPM IS JUST LIKE WATER OK ?  well .. im sure many ppl could understand . im just f6 student now , however , when i look back my spm , i still feelin , gosh .. so tough nia .. i cant rmb how im survive from tat .. 12 subjects ... fainted .  im not a A-lvl student , i duno how tough/easy is tat . if some1 said in a-lvl , 6 tests per month , i experienced it . maybe .. twice a week ? once a week ? more than enuf . STPM is my nightmare , since the 1st day i stepped in my f6 sch , i know my nightmare is begin . if i could choose again , i will never enter f6 , 1st month , my frens asked me to go to college , 2nd month .. yr end , 1st month in upper .. n now still , thr is ppl ask me to go to my way .haha .. im still in my f6 sch ya right now .. so struggle to make the decision . if im not very well in study [ not reli so so well too but can be better ] , maybe i will go to study computer science , b.admin , b.management , hotel .. bla bla .. those courses .. simpler life , simpler way . if u wan to argue that those courses have their own difficulty too , yes , im agree , but doctor / lawyer , will it easier compared with it ??  i ever think to advice all of the ppl around me do not enter to f6 , even my lower junior now , especially bio students . but they r sturborn too ya .. well nvm . but when i look into myself , one yr ago , im just like them , so naive .. come to sch daily without direction [ maybe they got ya , but im sure they r naive too ^^ ] actually i have my direction , but it will be a dream coz in f6 this way i might not be able to archieve it . 1st month in my lower my new classmates keep busy change class  , change course , change school .. all ran away .. just becoz our teachers' words . but they r correct . however , if all of us inside f6 could choose , we wont inside thr right now . still , i cant adapt myself in this f6's life , it changed a lot in my life . maybe u would say , entering f6 is not consist of disadvantages only but advantages too . but for me , wat i got from f6 , the disadvantages r more than advantages . wat i lost more than wat i get . this is wat can i say . im not a physics student , i duno how hard is that 2 books , i duno whr to go after finish stpm with phy sub , most on engineerin courses .. erm .. not reli sure about tat . but for bio , most on medical , research ...  those related to BIOLOGY . im phobia with it ^^ but i still have to go with it .honestly im sure i wont be able to get the certain course i wan in certain local u . m i choosy ? i think i am , but whos not ? m i arrogant ? i think i am , but my frens , family , teachers , mates .. so on keep on encourage me .. or they r fooling me ? no idea , quite confusing too .. many ppl as i saw , as i know , when their stpm result out , n they could not get the courses / local u they wan , they would choose the other way round . maybe course they don like , local u they don1 , local u / courses which all of his/her gang goin to ../omg .. it is a big mistake in life i think . even now , in my class , some of them came into f6 maybe just bcoz their gang all in it .. maybe they r hardworking , they have their dream , but they do always dream before exam , sorry if offence , but as u r stpm right now , or ex-stpm ,  u would know , it is impossible to 'digest' all the things inside ur head in a day before ur papers come , m i correct ? maybe im the only1 who hope for better result , im the1 who greedy , but who do not hope better result ? human r greedy ya .. except those ppl who easily give up so they just feelin , aiya , ngam2 pass , nvm la .. not bad too , atleast not in RED .. some ppl could digest it so that they can get pass in the tests . but if that is their aim in f6 , well .. none of my biznez , but as they are my classmates , im sincerely would like to encourage them o give them a hand [ not let then to copy ] ,but do advice them earlier . some ppl might said too , stpm is relax , juz look at me .. but the1 u look at , s/he is physically relax , but behind tat , maybe he study very hard daily , sleep only 3hrs ; or his/her result is so so ' pretty good ' . 2 kind of ppl in f6 . hmm .. me .. i play hard , i stduy hard .. LoL .. there is also classmates play hard all the time .. i think mostly .. they study hard too , exam season ^^ some of them include me are so pity , just do not have the other way to go , n then went into f6  .this is wat old folks talked about , ' every home has their own bible ' .  sigh .. too many things to say about my f6 life .. n i think not reli much ppl could understand it .. my advice is if u choose , do ur best , no regret . maybe it will a wrong way for u , but ur life is still long , it wont judge/ fix  ur whole life .

wahsai

hmm.. wat happened yah thesedayss ..seems many weird things happened nia ... hohoh .. well .. quite funny too ..

这该死的爱

just finish this korea drama .. wat da ... aaaihh .. it is quite touching too , but tis is the 2nd korea drama tat i watched which the endin is the main characters died ... /omg .. haizz .. i think this is the different between tw , kr , n hk drama .. hk usually 皆大欢喜收场 ， tw 童话，梦幻 , kr 悲惨 , but kr drama better than tw drama coz tw owez talk about rich , handsome .. perfect man with lousy gal o poor gal o perfect gal.. ngiau .. whr got so much such things happened in this world la pls .. korea more reality but wat i hate is they tied by their tradition .. 爱得那么悲惨 .. n finally die together .. hmm ...

swimming festivaL

hehe .. tml is swimmin festival ... dumpling day ~ half yr is passed .. the will b another half yr ~ phiew ~~

^ my classmates ^

yeah , they r my classmates , some r now still , some r ex , just havin few night's gathering , some gonna back kl , some r coming back ~ quite a lot from us , although still incomplete in member ,.. lol however , still havin fun in it . unrealizeable , we had graduated for 1 and half year , a lot changes of all of us .. memories b4 r still , time could not back , but we could think it back .. i still rmbed when we talked in pasar about scences happened in our lot 5 scn .. lol ~ some of us went in aus , some in spore , some juz back kl , some at kl so far neva back , some in kk .. it is true our gathering is getting less ppl frm time to time .. haha .. the best friends of group neva appear , but new groups r created .. many things changed , it might be can recover someday , but thr is one thing , i think it will neva return to its original places ~ 5 mths to go .. sometimes wanna get out from here immediately , but once i leave , i think it is reli neva return .. i so miss u guys who leave today , n oso the ppl who back yesterday .. erm ..not one , is 2 ppl .. hehe .. arGH!!! i hope i could stand n fight until 7dec2oo6 ... stress niaa .. sien aa ...

holiday ~

finaly , nightmare 1 was gone ... holiday finaly came .. busy for3 days .... exhausted argH !!!! actually wan to keep hardwork in this holiday for maths , but .. aihh ... y y y ~~ so coincidence ...

 

 

Onion story

i found a story about onion .

 

他/她 就像是洋葱 ，

我很想去了解他/她，

于是我一片一片地把它剥下 ，

最后我发现原来洋葱没有心 。。

free !!

muahaha .. finished exam !!!!!!!!!!! relax !~~~~~~~

chemistry chemistry chemistry chemistry

fark .. im getting crazy with chemistry  !!!!!!

woke up finally

being tire for whole day ..arGH !! tml is maths1 n pa1 papers .. phiew ... maths again.. boring .. bio didnt touch n start at all .. chemis almost delete all data :p hav to fighting deeply reli .... gambateh nehhh

sleep god

super tire super sleepy day ... woke for 1 hr . sleep for 3 hrs ... -.-" i doubted ... aih ... monday again tml .. exam again .. aRgh!!!!siennn

exam exam exam

phiew ~ finished PA paper 2 today .3 hrs for tat paper , i got 15 min left today .. alr exhausted n don1 to doubt anymore , jz check once n if found big mistakes oso jz let it .. i think don have much gua .. mon is pa n maths paper 1 .. i hate the maths paper coz tat teacher reli too arrogant , owez look down other ppl , maybe he wans to encourage the other , but he duno some ppl might get dissapointed n wanna give up coz his attitude .. so , my frens , we just hardwork for ourself .. so struggle .. bio n chemistry papers .. aRGh!!! stress .. neither bio nor chemis can be given up since either1 if die then all my efforts wasted ... )(*&^%$!@#$%^&^%$##$%^ a ZaA A zAaa fighting !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

human in the text

i think , human r most real in their text , they jz write watever in text , some ppl would write a diary , some write blog like me now , some through sms , some through email , but the main point is the content inside would represented their feelin at certain moment . im just posted comments to my frens . frens , i never know wat is tat . i don have fren , i never expect to have as much as i could . true fren , honest , sincere frens never stay 4ever with u . u never know when they appear , n u never can predict when they betray u . but , even jz a regular or strangers who reading this , they will be the1 who can know u overall . even a fren u tot u sacrifice n think for them so much at all the time , they never know , moreover , they took tat for granted , wat a pity stories behind . i never regret treat my frens so ,once i realized from it , i started awake n give up all da things n stopped my stupid actions . i never ask for rewards but i don even wish for the bad things u paid too ..

 

started dizzy .. duno wat to continue .. gambateh my frens ~ today paper .. i jz can said nv expect too many .. coz the more u expect the more u might be dissapointed .. i owez wan to be humble , coz arrogant made me dispointed more .. jz be as humble as u can .. u humble , once u success all ppl shocked , better than u brag , but at the end u lost , u become SUch a Big stupid jokes for other rest of ur life .. but , as humble as i would like to be , the more ppl said im fake .. well ~ up to them , coz ppl like those ..  our world is different .. no care no pain ^^ thr must be ppl who purposely make u sad , but at the other hand , thr r ppl who make u happy .. some ppl in the middle , would be ur listeners ... im in the middle ~ but i got frens who middle than me :p fainted --===----

goodbye

i can see the pain living in your eyes
and i know how hard you try
you deserve to have so much more
i can feel your heart and i sympathize
and i'll never criticize all you've ever meant to my life
i don't want to let you down
i don't want to lead you on
i don't want to hold you back
from where you might belong
you would never ask me why
my heart is so disguised
i just can't live a lie anymore
i would rather hurt myself
than to ever make you cry
there's nothing left to say but good-bye
you deserve the chance at the kind of love
i'm not sure i'm worthy of
losing you is painful to me

you would never ask me why
my heart is so disguised
i just can't live a lie anymore
i would rather hurt myself
than to ever make you cry
there's nothing left to try
through it's gonna hurt us both
there's no other way than to say good-bye

pls bless me

phiew ~ jz finished my maths 2 revision .argh ... moer energized but still left 4.3 hrs to sleep onli .. later have to study till 4 again ( estimated ) but usualy jz a plan ~ hehe .. i nit blessing frm others !!! it is more effective than stdy 1M times of the book ... altou jz a small bless ^^ jz do the best .. wishin other gud luck too

quote - 16/5/06

Grown up, independent you doesn't need too much hand-holding today -- you're off on your own, on a path that is definitely feeling comfortable. No one else you know can totally understand your reality, so don't be discouraged or disappointed that they can't provide the support or encouragement you may be looking for. When you rely on your own faith (or faith in yourself) to keep going, you'll ultimately be stronger and happier that you chose the route you chose.

 

hmm ... good to support me now to continue revise my maths .. argH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! a ZaA A zAa figHting ~~~~~~~~~

dead

tml is maths 2 paper .. ~ phiew ~ give it up ~ coz rel iduno wat da hell is tat ... rmb jz something wont will appear on the paper ..

sleepy days

sleepy again in this moment , i miss the days i slept late wake late .. i miss the day i sleep till awake originally .. yet im sleepy but thr r tonnes of books to read .. lower came finally , none frm stmike , tats great .. f6 reli is not a good road to walk .. reli have to promise with self so tat ever give up.. cheerr me up pls !!~~~~~~ wish : tml is a happy day ^^

strugglin...

arGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! jz finish arrange all da bookSSsssSS like a mountain which i have to digest n COPY in my hdd this week ... im so suffer ler :~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ lot of ppl seem put hope on me ...but im not as good as they expected . i stress not coz i will make them dissapointed , but jz some kind of feelin tat im doin things that no ending .. endless jobs errrhhh ..... when will i released ?? i doubted it . some ppl would said nobody can force u to do anything , but sometime , 身不由己 .. maybe im stubborn too .. but life is full of hopes , atleast work for it before give it up .. i nv act like how the ppl misunderstood me , jz to do my best , i treat with sincere , jz hopin other treat me as usual , not as good like i how i treat them , one thing is jz , don treat me which i nv treat other .. supports r required now , big big useful n effective spirit supporter .......... sarangheiyorr ~ annyeong-hi gaseyo

starting point

tml is monday again .. aIhhhHHHH !!!!!!!~~~~~~~~~~~~ n lower is coming , a bit excited to see who is coming , but oso feelin pity for them , last yr tml is the day i started suffer , hope thsoe of them who coming tml wont be like me .. exam is coming soon , i study my dramasSss very hard , jz keep dreaming in the drama .. when will the day is comin . tired of study , but if dont study wat else can i do .. im so wondering the future days but im afraid of it coz i know it will be more tough than now .. but now reli have many things tie on me !!!!!!!!! i wan to go somewhere nobody knows me , i wan a new life , new environment , new friends .. aRgh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! jI Hoon , u r so charm , in the character only .. when i would meet a real person like him n her .. saranghei

may it comes true ?

sigh .. recently i watched a drama again .. erm .. not a oso .. few ler .. not bad ler .. maybe im too naive .. but they r good dramas ..i like it very much .. so realistic .. but sometimes i doubted nowadays still have fairy tales like tat .. in my life ,so far , they were all lies ... jz wonder nowadays wat r human thinkin. sometimes they give ppl hopes , but then they took it away .. wat for .. we received easily , but then to give back, it is quite hard ok .. it doest mean we shud sacrifice without hopin any rewards , o we shud ask for any rewards , but i sacrifice  , i nv ask for anything , nv hope for anything good back to me, but pls , never ever , paid me back with hurts .. if that was what i deserved or get back , i hope i'll never give out anything

unpredictable

last9 went to a fren's birthday party in a club .. quite many ppl m a bit crowded . although tat was a pub , but didnt have any clubbin feeling .. duno y .. they were happy , enjoy , some i saw them enjoyin , some feelin sien . recently i boring with clubbin lifestyle .. i damn wonder those ppl inside clubs , wat were their expectation at thr . happy ? excited ? relax ? no idea , coz i duno y last time i was them too .. gettin dizzy today , started thinkin , if next year yesterday , same event still happen o not .. since all of us getting separate soon .. sometimes waitin the day comes faster , sometimes hoping certain moment jz stopped thr .. i feel lack of something .. maybe feelin , maybe frens , maybe my mood , maybe some ppl .. however ,  nv look back , lookin forward ^^ learn to let it go easy