这该死的爱

just finish this korea drama .. wat da ... aaaihh .. it is quite touching too , but tis is the 2nd korea drama tat i watched which the endin is the main characters died ... /omg .. haizz .. i think this is the different between tw , kr , n hk drama .. hk usually 皆大欢喜收场 ， tw 童话，梦幻 , kr 悲惨 , but kr drama better than tw drama coz tw owez talk about rich , handsome .. perfect man with lousy gal o poor gal o perfect gal.. ngiau .. whr got so much such things happened in this world la pls .. korea more reality but wat i hate is they tied by their tradition .. 爱得那么悲惨 .. n finally die together .. hmm ...

swimming festivaL

hehe .. tml is swimmin festival ... dumpling day ~ half yr is passed .. the will b another half yr ~ phiew ~~

^ my classmates ^

yeah , they r my classmates , some r now still , some r ex , just havin few night's gathering , some gonna back kl , some r coming back ~ quite a lot from us , although still incomplete in member ,.. lol however , still havin fun in it . unrealizeable , we had graduated for 1 and half year , a lot changes of all of us .. memories b4 r still , time could not back , but we could think it back .. i still rmbed when we talked in pasar about scences happened in our lot 5 scn .. lol ~ some of us went in aus , some in spore , some juz back kl , some at kl so far neva back , some in kk .. it is true our gathering is getting less ppl frm time to time .. haha .. the best friends of group neva appear , but new groups r created .. many things changed , it might be can recover someday , but thr is one thing , i think it will neva return to its original places ~ 5 mths to go .. sometimes wanna get out from here immediately , but once i leave , i think it is reli neva return .. i so miss u guys who leave today , n oso the ppl who back yesterday .. erm ..not one , is 2 ppl .. hehe .. arGH!!! i hope i could stand n fight until 7dec2oo6 ... stress niaa .. sien aa ...

holiday ~

finaly , nightmare 1 was gone ... holiday finaly came .. busy for3 days .... exhausted argH !!!! actually wan to keep hardwork in this holiday for maths , but .. aihh ... y y y ~~ so coincidence ...

 

 

Onion story

i found a story about onion .

 

他/她 就像是洋葱 ，

我很想去了解他/她，

于是我一片一片地把它剥下 ，

最后我发现原来洋葱没有心 。。

free !!

muahaha .. finished exam !!!!!!!!!!! relax !~~~~~~~

chemistry chemistry chemistry chemistry

fark .. im getting crazy with chemistry  !!!!!!

woke up finally

being tire for whole day ..arGH !! tml is maths1 n pa1 papers .. phiew ... maths again.. boring .. bio didnt touch n start at all .. chemis almost delete all data :p hav to fighting deeply reli .... gambateh nehhh

sleep god

super tire super sleepy day ... woke for 1 hr . sleep for 3 hrs ... -.-" i doubted ... aih ... monday again tml .. exam again .. aRgh!!!!siennn

exam exam exam

phiew ~ finished PA paper 2 today .3 hrs for tat paper , i got 15 min left today .. alr exhausted n don1 to doubt anymore , jz check once n if found big mistakes oso jz let it .. i think don have much gua .. mon is pa n maths paper 1 .. i hate the maths paper coz tat teacher reli too arrogant , owez look down other ppl , maybe he wans to encourage the other , but he duno some ppl might get dissapointed n wanna give up coz his attitude .. so , my frens , we just hardwork for ourself .. so struggle .. bio n chemistry papers .. aRGh!!! stress .. neither bio nor chemis can be given up since either1 if die then all my efforts wasted ... )(*&^%$!@#$%^&^%$##$%^ a ZaA A zAaa fighting !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

human in the text

i think , human r most real in their text , they jz write watever in text , some ppl would write a diary , some write blog like me now , some through sms , some through email , but the main point is the content inside would represented their feelin at certain moment . im just posted comments to my frens . frens , i never know wat is tat . i don have fren , i never expect to have as much as i could . true fren , honest , sincere frens never stay 4ever with u . u never know when they appear , n u never can predict when they betray u . but , even jz a regular or strangers who reading this , they will be the1 who can know u overall . even a fren u tot u sacrifice n think for them so much at all the time , they never know , moreover , they took tat for granted , wat a pity stories behind . i never regret treat my frens so ,once i realized from it , i started awake n give up all da things n stopped my stupid actions . i never ask for rewards but i don even wish for the bad things u paid too ..

 

started dizzy .. duno wat to continue .. gambateh my frens ~ today paper .. i jz can said nv expect too many .. coz the more u expect the more u might be dissapointed .. i owez wan to be humble , coz arrogant made me dispointed more .. jz be as humble as u can .. u humble , once u success all ppl shocked , better than u brag , but at the end u lost , u become SUch a Big stupid jokes for other rest of ur life .. but , as humble as i would like to be , the more ppl said im fake .. well ~ up to them , coz ppl like those ..  our world is different .. no care no pain ^^ thr must be ppl who purposely make u sad , but at the other hand , thr r ppl who make u happy .. some ppl in the middle , would be ur listeners ... im in the middle ~ but i got frens who middle than me :p fainted --===----

goodbye

i can see the pain living in your eyes
and i know how hard you try
you deserve to have so much more
i can feel your heart and i sympathize
and i'll never criticize all you've ever meant to my life
i don't want to let you down
i don't want to lead you on
i don't want to hold you back
from where you might belong
you would never ask me why
my heart is so disguised
i just can't live a lie anymore
i would rather hurt myself
than to ever make you cry
there's nothing left to say but good-bye
you deserve the chance at the kind of love
i'm not sure i'm worthy of
losing you is painful to me

you would never ask me why
my heart is so disguised
i just can't live a lie anymore
i would rather hurt myself
than to ever make you cry
there's nothing left to try
through it's gonna hurt us both
there's no other way than to say good-bye

pls bless me

phiew ~ jz finished my maths 2 revision .argh ... moer energized but still left 4.3 hrs to sleep onli .. later have to study till 4 again ( estimated ) but usualy jz a plan ~ hehe .. i nit blessing frm others !!! it is more effective than stdy 1M times of the book ... altou jz a small bless ^^ jz do the best .. wishin other gud luck too

quote - 16/5/06

Grown up, independent you doesn't need too much hand-holding today -- you're off on your own, on a path that is definitely feeling comfortable. No one else you know can totally understand your reality, so don't be discouraged or disappointed that they can't provide the support or encouragement you may be looking for. When you rely on your own faith (or faith in yourself) to keep going, you'll ultimately be stronger and happier that you chose the route you chose.

 

hmm ... good to support me now to continue revise my maths .. argH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! a ZaA A zAa figHting ~~~~~~~~~

dead

tml is maths 2 paper .. ~ phiew ~ give it up ~ coz rel iduno wat da hell is tat ... rmb jz something wont will appear on the paper ..

sleepy days

sleepy again in this moment , i miss the days i slept late wake late .. i miss the day i sleep till awake originally .. yet im sleepy but thr r tonnes of books to read .. lower came finally , none frm stmike , tats great .. f6 reli is not a good road to walk .. reli have to promise with self so tat ever give up.. cheerr me up pls !!~~~~~~ wish : tml is a happy day ^^

strugglin...

arGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! jz finish arrange all da bookSSsssSS like a mountain which i have to digest n COPY in my hdd this week ... im so suffer ler :~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ lot of ppl seem put hope on me ...but im not as good as they expected . i stress not coz i will make them dissapointed , but jz some kind of feelin tat im doin things that no ending .. endless jobs errrhhh ..... when will i released ?? i doubted it . some ppl would said nobody can force u to do anything , but sometime , 身不由己 .. maybe im stubborn too .. but life is full of hopes , atleast work for it before give it up .. i nv act like how the ppl misunderstood me , jz to do my best , i treat with sincere , jz hopin other treat me as usual , not as good like i how i treat them , one thing is jz , don treat me which i nv treat other .. supports r required now , big big useful n effective spirit supporter .......... sarangheiyorr ~ annyeong-hi gaseyo

starting point

tml is monday again .. aIhhhHHHH !!!!!!!~~~~~~~~~~~~ n lower is coming , a bit excited to see who is coming , but oso feelin pity for them , last yr tml is the day i started suffer , hope thsoe of them who coming tml wont be like me .. exam is coming soon , i study my dramasSss very hard , jz keep dreaming in the drama .. when will the day is comin . tired of study , but if dont study wat else can i do .. im so wondering the future days but im afraid of it coz i know it will be more tough than now .. but now reli have many things tie on me !!!!!!!!! i wan to go somewhere nobody knows me , i wan a new life , new environment , new friends .. aRgh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! jI Hoon , u r so charm , in the character only .. when i would meet a real person like him n her .. saranghei

may it comes true ?

sigh .. recently i watched a drama again .. erm .. not a oso .. few ler .. not bad ler .. maybe im too naive .. but they r good dramas ..i like it very much .. so realistic .. but sometimes i doubted nowadays still have fairy tales like tat .. in my life ,so far , they were all lies ... jz wonder nowadays wat r human thinkin. sometimes they give ppl hopes , but then they took it away .. wat for .. we received easily , but then to give back, it is quite hard ok .. it doest mean we shud sacrifice without hopin any rewards , o we shud ask for any rewards , but i sacrifice  , i nv ask for anything , nv hope for anything good back to me, but pls , never ever , paid me back with hurts .. if that was what i deserved or get back , i hope i'll never give out anything

unpredictable

last9 went to a fren's birthday party in a club .. quite many ppl m a bit crowded . although tat was a pub , but didnt have any clubbin feeling .. duno y .. they were happy , enjoy , some i saw them enjoyin , some feelin sien . recently i boring with clubbin lifestyle .. i damn wonder those ppl inside clubs , wat were their expectation at thr . happy ? excited ? relax ? no idea , coz i duno y last time i was them too .. gettin dizzy today , started thinkin , if next year yesterday , same event still happen o not .. since all of us getting separate soon .. sometimes waitin the day comes faster , sometimes hoping certain moment jz stopped thr .. i feel lack of something .. maybe feelin , maybe frens , maybe my mood , maybe some ppl .. however ,  nv look back , lookin forward ^^ learn to let it go easy