so many to recall back ~

arghhh ... just finished 'pouring bitter water' to my school mates ...i was bullied by my company , where i have to replace the leave I applied for CNY . None of my coursemates applied CNY leave gonna replace their leave BUT ONLY MY COMPANY NEEDS ME TO REPLACE !!!!!!!!!!!!! WHAT THE !

i'd consulted one of my colleagues today , she said she also not very sure about this company's rules , but she said actually i am not paid , but is given some so-called allowances , and some companies require interns to replace the leave although allowances r given , or not given . all are depending on the company .. sighh.. since she also said so lor ... what to do ... just accept lor .. haizzz ... . GOD also them , EVIL also them .. i'm just an ordinary average human ... but i cant control even in my dream to curse this com ..... arghhhhhhhhhh ........ some asking why don't they just deducted from allowances ? how should i know ? THIS CAN BE DUE TO WE DON'T HAVE THE PROTECTION FROM THE UNI. If we have such letter to state all terms and conditions, then we can argue. at least we are protected, but not everything control and arranged by the company. They just changed the rules and policies whenever they want. And we have no choice to say yes or not .

The most terrible problem is,

On last week , i've referred to one of the HR staffs , she in charge of all staffs and recruitment .. something like that , i asked why i have to replace , the leave is paid or not pay ? at the same time , when i'm replacing for the 8 days later , am i paid or not pay ?

which is paid and which is unpaid ?

but then she answered me : nomatter you are paid or not pay , we have the right to ask u to replace . ... i hate very much in fact , coz she has bad attitude and eye on forehead ... somemore she said like that , she should know she needs to take responsible on what she said , you won't believe this is a hr personnel , or all hr personals are the same ? but her colleague is not . Is she means , 你讲晒伞。。你讲咩就咩。。同按住来抢有咩分别？ since the 1st day i entered this company , that is the culture of the company, how they act . just change anything , just decide anything on what they want.... yet our uni or program does not protect us .

the company should thank to her , for her sake , due to her . this company 's image , their reputation will changed by me .

until now , i really don't know actually am i paid or not pay . B'coz i did asked to another HR , who in charge of payroll , i was asking how much is my allowance , when it will be pay ? how it is paid ? cash or cheque ? per month or per day ?

but she told me that my supervisor has not propose anything yet .. my godddd .............. frankly i don't mind how much is that , because it does not mean anything at all . how much they gonna pay = my performance , yet i don't think i perform anything in that company . i was just like a machine , they just key in what they want , and i will do anything according to their command. I hope time of this pass asap . I am now not in learning stage anymore , i just a ' da gung zai ' ... and i accepted this situation already . i know i was lifeless now , but i cant do anything , life goes on .. if this is my destiny , i just followed what GOD arranged . THanks god ... truly .. maybe it is the time for me to think wise , what am i gonna do , where i'm going to graduate .

Today again , i heard there are people wanna resign soon too .. since i entered the company , every week there are people keep resign ...

Actually , there is sometimes , there are fun times and things during working , learning myanmarish , learning duck & chicken's dialogue .. gossip with security guards and labours .... err ... i think no more ..

i am now try to adjust my daily working plans so that my time can be fully utilized during 8.30am - 6.00 pm , no matter what i do , as long as , i am doing something . i don't care what my lecturer gonna ask me what foodscience knowledge , haccp, gmp , this and that did i learn , i think they also should ..we merely sit , cutting paper, washing cups , sweeping floor and walking in the company ... since they had the experiences too ...

just now accidentally , saw one of the old friends from hometown , who i knew him through MIRC , 10 years ago . And now HE WAS MARRIED !!!!!! and her wife is so pretty , like a model ............. i don't mean he is not handsome , just his body shape is not a model's as well , so i was shocked . When i recalled his background , i think he deserves to have all he had now .... when GOD took something from you , HE will return u back something .

And , i saw his account as well ... suddenly , i miss him so much ... and i'd forgotten , i'm getting old again ... it is 2010 now .... when i saw the year he was born 1982 .. i feel he is old and he should get married as well , as the friend i mentioned above was also born in 1982 . But , i am not young anymore as well ... im 23 ... goshhhhhhhhh .........

and few days ago , i saw the uni friends went clubbing at kl , this is the final yr for them ... yuksss ..... i miss the day clubbing with my foodscience kaki .......... when we club again guys and galsssssssss ......... i miss the dayss we hang out ...

time to sleeep!!! zzzzZZZZZZzzzzzZZZZZZZZZZZzz