modern love

“我在你的眼中看到泪水，所以我懂得，有时人生中痛苦，流泪也是一件好事。” “虽然现在很痛苦，没有言语能够表达，但是相信很快一切都会随风逝去。” “—500万年是一个轮回，500万年后你如果你再遇见我，转身就逃吧，因为500万年后，我还会爱着信。 —500万年后，我还会在这里等着你。” 挥不去的是小律那深情而忧郁的眼神，为爱痛苦却得不到的痴痴守望的神情，挥不去那张漫画式的花一样的迷人面孔——百合王子的贵气的脸； 忘不掉的是信太子孤自抱着小熊盘坐喃呢的无助的背影，将彩京紧紧搂在怀里的如冰山下火种般的热情，忘不了信的眼泪——一个冷酷王子的眼泪。 “我好想你，即使天天看着你，还是好想你。”这是怎样的一种感情，冷酷的外表下的一颗温热的心。爱侣之间唯有坦诚说出彼此的爱慕，才能避免误解，告白是彼此相爱者之间互赠的最好的礼物——深深打动爱人的心，也感动我们这些旁观者的心。 500万年的守候，又是怎样一种感情，明朗俊美的外形下的一个执著爱情的灵魂。 每个人的爱情旅途上总会遇到这样两个人——爱你的人和你爱的人。我相信，你爱的人会爱上你，而爱你的人也会成为你心灵的依靠，就像信和律。于是在爱情的剧本中，有了你生命里的男一号和男二号。 男一号是你爱情的向往，你的目光、你的心情，无时无刻不追随着他的足迹； 男二号或许是你最好的异性知己，你是他世界中的阳光，他会承担你的眼泪、分享你的快乐——特别是你和你的阿波罗的点滴，他往往像你感情故事的纸篓，像你闺房中的毛绒狗狗，静静地倾听你的心事，你却忽视了他的感受，你获得了倾诉后的轻松，而他却越来越沉重，无法愈合的伤痛。 “我的小律受伤了！”这是我们屋一个女孩常常发出的感慨，她是个善良的女孩，因此她常常沉溺在对男二号的迷恋之中。 男二号的确很迷人，女孩往往是感性的，女孩往往口是心非，女孩痴迷于自己心中的阿波罗，女孩感动于为自己默默付出的男孩，女孩在阿波罗甚至连一个Goodbye-kiss都没有乘着金色马车扬长而去的时候，女孩是伤心的，是脆弱的，而男二号的悉心体贴，温存的眼神，有谁能够拒绝，有哪个女孩能够不为之动容呢？痴情的、深情的、拥抱伟大爱情的男孩，总是那么令人着迷，即使女孩的心早已给了另一个人，女孩还是难以割舍与男二号比友情更深一层的眷恋之情、依恋之情，因为他能让女孩爱着一个人的疲惫的心找到一个休憩的港湾，简单宁静而又温暖舒适，男二号总是默默的守护着他心中的女孩，就像守望着天使的海豚。 爱情是个曼妙的东西，当爱降临的时候，能让人变得勤劳而又温柔，这被称之为“爱情的力量”！爱情不该变成畸形的占有，爱情应该是一种彼此的爱慕、彼此的关怀、彼此的理解、彼此的信任、彼此的祝福。爱情本是长久时，又岂在朝朝暮暮。 今天听说，一个男孩因为她女朋友考研失败，就甩了她。义愤填膺！室友说，这种人，最好的办法就是女孩好好努力继续考研，考到男孩所在的学校，找个比男孩好得多的人，气死那男孩！那女孩的自身条件还不错，长得很淑女，而男孩甚至连身高上都不如女孩，除了那男孩是名校的，女孩在一般的大学。非常气愤！名校就了不起了吗，女孩性格太好了，要是其他人，哼……落井下石，考研的失败可以成为分手的理由吗，女孩自己一定已经很难过了，那种人，这么可以雪上加霜呢？这不是爱情，不要也罢！ 电视剧里的爱情，总是那般纯净、那般美好，或许不过是理想吧！于是，有了影视剧的魅力，有了人们迷恋的理由。现实中极端的爱情案例，影视中迷幻的爱情神话，现实与理想的落差，生活与想象的反差，成就了现代人的双重个性：一面是对于梦境的迷恋与向往，一面是对于现实的无奈或反叛。人们把善的一面写入影视艺术，在生活中理解和适应现实的世界。在夜灯下看梦境在眼前上演，是何等的惬意！ 《宫》的出现，让我真正体会到影视剧梦的艺术。它讲述的是一个假设的传奇。 韩国人有着很会幻想的个性，有着非常细腻的内心情感，懂得生活，懂得爱，这些性格写入了韩剧。新韩剧比起旧韩剧有着很大的进步，韩国人发挥了更大的想象空间，虽然帅哥美女的组合依旧——这是韩剧的亮点，就像少女漫画，唯美派的！但是，剧情上不再是以悲剧——主人公一方的死亡收尾，喜剧性的情节、大团圆的结局似乎更迎合中国观众的口味！干净纯美的画面，也是韩剧的魅力。我常常觉得，韩剧是情感化的剧种，如果一定要给韩剧颁奖的话，那么最优秀的不是导演，不是编剧，而是摄影！其次是乐师，韩剧的悠扬旋律，总是令人难以忘怀，并且跟情节配合地完美无瑕！这也可见韩国人的细腻之处。 《宫》，虚构了一个巨大的时代背景——假设2006年的韩国是君主立宪制的国家，有着李姓皇室，高大深沉的皇太子与天真单纯的贫民女孩，接受了上上代人的安排，结为夫妻，原本不合的两个人，在摩擦碰撞中产生了爱情，爱情改变了彼此，现代版的王子与灰姑娘的爱情童话，加上俊美小王子的介入，一切愈加迷幻……三角形是几何图形中最稳定的，两个人的爱情有了第三个人的介入是一种考验，更是一种促进。两男一女的组合，永远是影视剧中最精彩的因素，也是女孩们都梦想的一种状态。于是，女孩最爱做的梦拼合在一起，就是这部《宫》的故事。也算是，为我们无趣的生活“注入一点新的活力”，展开想象吧！……

NEVER GIVE UP

omg ... local uni application was out !! heard so many things ... so scare aaa ..... although not those hot courses , but even normal courses still , got ppl cant get ... but noen of my biznez of tat ... n i do more research .. n then ... aiiihh ... tat is a fact , reli a truth !!! pharmacy and medic in all the popular local uni in msia are all 4 flat students !!!!!!!!WAKS!!!!!!!!!! how can i survive n compete with them while im so lousy at here +chinese + my cocum so inactive + im sabahan + stpm candidate !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 4 flat oso useless ... shit!!!!!!!!! wat to do ????????????? im reli dissapointed ... aiihhhh ...... have to think what else to fill in my 8 choices thr ......... reli no more excuse for myself ... study hard * infinity oso not confident , not sure , no confirm ........ no more lazy , no more reason , no more stress as excuse .... work for it for my smooth road !!! 5 mths to boost it up ........................... amen

new sem new sem

new sem is starting !!! phewwittt~~~ suffer days lor .. wat else .. all subs rush rush rush ... have to stduy daily now reli ... gambateh ~~~ 4 mths left ~~ wuahahaha

sch reopened

sien sien sien .. this is my conclusion on my 1st day sch reopened .. nyiak sai reli !!!!!!!!!!!!!! akS ! 1st day alr annoounced that exam is coming on ogos ... puiks .. wan die pls .. report card not yet get , exam papers are coming back ... exam is coming .. everything  rush rush rush .......... breathless .. aiya ... never give up .. ?? who knows ... stduy hard play hard .. i enjoy my 2 weeks holiday .. but b4 that , i promised to enjoy till the end but once sch reopen , 4 mhs left , to work hard till the end too ~~ lol ~ this is life ...

 

im quite ... bler .. duno how to express my feeling ..so complicated . i think i did the best in that papers , but , quite motionless when tat woman said like tat . erm .. yap , i agree , tat is not good enuf , but tat is wat can i do for the best i could so far .. keep on improve is my goal .. who is born to be a genius ? i hate ppl judge a human with this attitude .. jiak sai .. i just wan to be humble . mute . live peace ^^ ~ im greedy , im hoping , im expecting too .. but i have my way to cool down myself when i met failure .. its ok bcoz no 1 is perfect ~~~~~~~~~ DO THE BEST ~

complicated

aihhh... the stress is coming near n near ... feeling unbreathable ... -.- sudenly rmb my fren studying in kk .. din realized at all anything during holidya ..reli a great holiday .. i miss my exclassmates a lot .. haha .. duno y .. but they are all really energized , competeable .. they r so so strong in stduy .. it is quite fun if studied together with them ..  good competers ... erm .. maybe i can undertsood their stands when they r so great b4 , now , n future they r big trees and im small grass only .. but they do not look me down but actually they r protecting me / us below them .. sigh .. it seems i cannot find such population in my sch now .. im hoping my coming uni environment would be look lilke how ... im so desire the day is coming .. desiring that it will be another new thing in my life

wonderful night

well well.. yesterday was a very busy day ..erm.. i mean im busy watching tv .. haha .. 1st .. leehom got the best male singer .. phiew~ he is reli reli handsome and talent .. perfect man yea ~ congrat ~ his album this time is reli nice .. he deserved it .. n the others shows were also great .. yo yo ~ 2ndly .. england won wc ..im not reli know wat was happening but i reli feeling excited when england won 1-0 till the end ~ maybe this hot team is desevered to support by all the ppl in the world and they are reli have their efforts ..but .. now .. 23 hrs 15 mins left will be my dead day ... no no no suffer days .. aiihh .. it is coming nehh ...

its coming

world cup came . my sch reopen date is coming soon too . suffer days are coming too .. waks! my fren is right , suffer day is begin ... sien sien sien ... havent get ready yet .. sigh .. reli so tension to think that .. 174 days to go .. * DEEP BREATHING *

成熟的愛情觀

單身，有時不一定是貴族。單身也許會比較自由，但自由也有一個同義詞叫寂寞。
因為人不是什麼時候都喜歡一個人獨處的；有時好東西需要跟人分享，有時候難過需要人安慰。

單身貴族產生的原因，是因經濟上的獨立、人上的獨立以及感情上的獨立。
獨立是什麼？獨立是需要而不依賴，一個獨立的人需要異性，而不依賴異性。

做情人之前，他應該先是朋友。
他成為你的朋友之後，出現在你的生活裏，才有可能認識你、了解你、知道你的長處而對你產生好感，進一步發展感情，變成情人、對象。

世界上的顏色並非只有白色和黑色，黑與白之間還有很漫長的灰色地帶。只要多相處，便能發現對方的優點、產生好感，這才是發展感情的自然過程。
『一見鍾情』以及『從一而終』的感情是不切實際的，我們需要的不是這種不切實際而虛幻的感情。

有人形容跟異性交往，就好像在海邊撿石頭，大家都會撿喜歡的那一顆。一旦撿到一顆你最喜歡的石頭，便把它帶回家去，好好對待它，因為那是妳唯一的石
頭。而且要記住，從此後不要再到海邊去。
(永遠相信，我已經找到最大、最美、最適合我的那一顆）跟異性交往最重要的不是他有多好，而是他對你有多好。

一個人如果條件很好，有一百分，可是這一百分之中，他只給你三四十分，或一二十分；相反地，另一個人也許只有七八十分，可是他卻是全心全意的對待你，那你應該選擇那一個？
其實，每一個人的條件都是一樣的。不管你有多好，都還有人比你更好。你雖然做不到一個『最好的人』，可是你卻做得到一個『對對方最好的人』。

每一個男孩子都可以說：『雖然我不是世界上最好的男人，但我是世界對妳最好的男人』。
反過來女孩子也是一樣，這是每一個人都做得到的。感情最重要的是在於他對你的好，而不是他自己有多好。

但是如果有一個人本身已經很好了，對你又是真心真意，真心愛你，那麼你真的可以把一生托付給他。
現在女性考慮婚姻的唯一條件，應該就是你愛不愛他，他愛不愛你，是不是真心真意對妳，跟他在一起會不會有壓力，會不會快樂，而非他有什麼！

人間的真愛是很難得的。在人的一生中，很難找到一個妳真正愛，真正可以跟他過一輩子的人如果你怯於表達，或害怕會有什麼事，錯失一輩子可能只有一次的真愛，那就太可惜了，所以一定要採取主動，把心裏的話說出來。
如果一個男孩子因為女孩子對他採取主動而看不起她，那麼這個男孩子不是男生，而是畜生。更何況，幸福比面子重要，如果犧牲一時的面子可以換得一生的幸福，是非常值得的，勇敢把心裏的話說出來，不要隱藏自己的真心。

千萬別說緣份未到，其實緣份到處都有，但卻是稍縱即逝，如果『緣』不及時把握，那就沒有『份』了。
大多數的女性對感情是偏重於精神，男性則偏於物質。男孩子除了對女孩子殷勤體貼外，也要學會對女孩子負責任，要將對天下所有女孩子的殷勤體貼，全部用來對一個女孩子。

另外剛毅木納並不能討女孩歡心，所以要學習對女孩子甜言蜜語，多說好話。
男人，為性而愛；女人，為愛而性。一個維持起來輕鬆、愉快的感情容易長久！

一個維持起來艱難而痛苦的感情不易長久，這時後就應該有所選擇。
我們都是凡夫俗子要的是平凡幸福並且快樂的愛情。對所有的感情而言，過程遠比結果重要。為什麼？因為所有的感情都是沒有結果的。

什麼是結果？結婚嗎？結婚之後就過著幸福快樂的日子嗎？可見我們不以感情的痕跡來評斷它的價值感，情也不以時間的長短來論定它的價值。
對感情而言，凡是發生過的都存在，凡是存在過的都有價值。世界上的感情每一段、每一分、每一秒都是值得珍惜的。婚姻是人生裏最大的一場賭局。

사랑해요

사랑해요 if u know this . nice language than others

get ready

wAKS! holiday so fast finished !! still in holiday mood nehh .. but .. the 6 months left shud be finished faster too .. it is time to back to study mood ! just warm up .. shud be happy to back to sch ? i never feeeling happy to back to school .. muahaha .. maybe shud be tension a bit . wondering the 1st how is the assembly , quite curious how the lower gonna die , i swear i will never help them , some i would , those who tot they better enuf , hoping them to suffer till the end .. wondering hows th exam paper , well well .. failed with a super duper marks~ even do not fail , but .. hmm ... not as good as where too :p sigh .. live peace :) get the right way ..do the better of better .. a za a za fighting

phiew ~ still pending

jz saw my fren's nick , next monday is suffering day begin , well my suffering days will be begin on next next monday too .. aRGH ~ finally , thought back , i pass 1.5 yr in my sch .. huh ? how im survive from it a ? i not reli rmb wat was happened when the 1st day , but the feelin on the first was still here . shud i enter herE ? i shudnt . im still regret . but if i could choose again , sure i wont choose it again . but , i think the probability i do it again , yes . many many other factors influenced me .. i doubted . wat shud i do ? whr shud i go ? when shud i do ? how shud i do ? sigh .. still many question marks .. WAKS! still blur , still confusing , still no idea , still no certain directions ..  well .. listening my favourite radio program .. cant think other thing ~ to be continue then ..

horoscope 02.06.2006

A gift you're given has big responsibilities attached, but don't let that stop you.

In Detail

A powerful person will come into your life bearing gifts, and there may be some big strings attached, so don't let your gratitude fog your skepticism. Ask a few questions and get to the bottom of their newfound generosity. You'll soon see that the responsibilities laid out in front of you are ones you could really sink your teeth into. Don't be afraid to be up-front about your reservations, but if you're ready for a chance to show your worth, this is it!

 

i think quite accurate .. i met the powerful person .. it brought me alot of new knowledges .. i asked a lot .. im getting ready to show my worth .. ^^ hopefully

i found a ppl jus like me ^^

well.. im just like u right now .. haha .. i think i wont give up to go to medical field lo if i cannot enter local1 .. i think now most ppl who would like to 'eat gov rice' so they will go to f6 lor , coz all local uni only accept f6 , instead of matrix .  n now i had no regret n nth i could/have to regret too coz i left 6 mths to go .. lOL .. im just pity for those coming generation who their family could not support them to go private u in medical fields n then they have to hide their talent in this field .. how pity is that .. just like me , b4 f6 , i reli not confidence to go to private to take the medical sub coz tat tution fee aa ... waKS.. i try to count , i might not be able to earn back those money to my family .. lol .. but wat to do.. i bet with myself . goin to alevel o foundation , n goin to my way . but if my foundation or alvl fail , then how , cant go in local u then . but if stpm , if i could not go in med field , then go to be a teacher lor .. o other lor .. still save .. but i think i wont .. coz have a goal in life better than doubting ..  wat i learnt in this 1 yr f6 is blif in urself , not to listen to ur mates who trying to seduce u , reli have to be strength n not influenced easily by the others .  i duno why is it , maybe we r not close enuf , so im still aware them . but some of them , it is reli so obvious . they might try to persuade u not to study so hard , this n that , n then they did what they advised u not to do .. haha .. luckily , im strong enuf . or maybe they envy ? hmm .. im just do my best , keep encourage all of them to study hard , keep give them guidelines ,  lending homeworks for those who r weak but hardwork , keep teach to my big competers/enemies/ppl who dislike me . i made a wish , i just wan to live peace in f6 . i did my best , nomatter i fail o pass , tats my efforts . marks would never certified me .. but if can get good mark then good lar .. haha

stpm2

last time , i heard so many ppl said that f6 is a good way , i considered too , ya , not bad . but , tat time just too naive , it is becoz the course n local u which i wan after it . im still in the conjunction n do not hav any idea whr to go after f6 . finally came into f6 too . after the 1st monthly tests , i know how gud m i , how shud i survive in f6 . i nv expect i could get the local u i wan ,with the course i wan ^^ im not surrender , just not to dissapointed too much . n if my attitude such as this could got that , i think i shud guilty , not im not hardworkin , just there r still many many ppl who more more hardworking than me ^^ they r more deserve it . im bio students . i duno how tough is physics students , im not sure how better is their ways when choose course after stpm , but i think bio students tougher .. since many news about bio students could not get dr. so on courses even 4 flat .. it is so dissapointed .. n this is wat i hate in msia edu gov .. i still rmb what my teacher told me , i asked him at 1st , if i got 4 flat , then do i have chance to get my course n the local u i wan ? n his answer is so perfect , he said : there is not only u who get 4 flat , but still many many who more more distinction compared with u. after this , i  neva dream n talk n swear to get 4 flat alr .. haha .. im not give up , but im just ppl who just do my best n never regret . although i wont be the best , but if i did my best , n the result is like tat , i deserved it , then it is the best in myself alr ..

so i would like to say tat , come into f6 or not , make ur decision , work for it , do ur best , no regret . nothing is good nothing is bad in the world , depends how u decorate it . if u fail in f6 , i don think it will judge/fix ur whole life ^^

STPM

it is true , STPM is tough ; it is true , SPM , PMR , UPSR are a piece of cake . but after stpm , if im in university ,n i look back , i would shout on those f6 students or lower .. OMG .. STPM IS JUST LIKE WATER OK ?  well .. im sure many ppl could understand . im just f6 student now , however , when i look back my spm , i still feelin , gosh .. so tough nia .. i cant rmb how im survive from tat .. 12 subjects ... fainted .  im not a A-lvl student , i duno how tough/easy is tat . if some1 said in a-lvl , 6 tests per month , i experienced it . maybe .. twice a week ? once a week ? more than enuf . STPM is my nightmare , since the 1st day i stepped in my f6 sch , i know my nightmare is begin . if i could choose again , i will never enter f6 , 1st month , my frens asked me to go to college , 2nd month .. yr end , 1st month in upper .. n now still , thr is ppl ask me to go to my way .haha .. im still in my f6 sch ya right now .. so struggle to make the decision . if im not very well in study [ not reli so so well too but can be better ] , maybe i will go to study computer science , b.admin , b.management , hotel .. bla bla .. those courses .. simpler life , simpler way . if u wan to argue that those courses have their own difficulty too , yes , im agree , but doctor / lawyer , will it easier compared with it ??  i ever think to advice all of the ppl around me do not enter to f6 , even my lower junior now , especially bio students . but they r sturborn too ya .. well nvm . but when i look into myself , one yr ago , im just like them , so naive .. come to sch daily without direction [ maybe they got ya , but im sure they r naive too ^^ ] actually i have my direction , but it will be a dream coz in f6 this way i might not be able to archieve it . 1st month in my lower my new classmates keep busy change class  , change course , change school .. all ran away .. just becoz our teachers' words . but they r correct . however , if all of us inside f6 could choose , we wont inside thr right now . still , i cant adapt myself in this f6's life , it changed a lot in my life . maybe u would say , entering f6 is not consist of disadvantages only but advantages too . but for me , wat i got from f6 , the disadvantages r more than advantages . wat i lost more than wat i get . this is wat can i say . im not a physics student , i duno how hard is that 2 books , i duno whr to go after finish stpm with phy sub , most on engineerin courses .. erm .. not reli sure about tat . but for bio , most on medical , research ...  those related to BIOLOGY . im phobia with it ^^ but i still have to go with it .honestly im sure i wont be able to get the certain course i wan in certain local u . m i choosy ? i think i am , but whos not ? m i arrogant ? i think i am , but my frens , family , teachers , mates .. so on keep on encourage me .. or they r fooling me ? no idea , quite confusing too .. many ppl as i saw , as i know , when their stpm result out , n they could not get the courses / local u they wan , they would choose the other way round . maybe course they don like , local u they don1 , local u / courses which all of his/her gang goin to ../omg .. it is a big mistake in life i think . even now , in my class , some of them came into f6 maybe just bcoz their gang all in it .. maybe they r hardworking , they have their dream , but they do always dream before exam , sorry if offence , but as u r stpm right now , or ex-stpm ,  u would know , it is impossible to 'digest' all the things inside ur head in a day before ur papers come , m i correct ? maybe im the only1 who hope for better result , im the1 who greedy , but who do not hope better result ? human r greedy ya .. except those ppl who easily give up so they just feelin , aiya , ngam2 pass , nvm la .. not bad too , atleast not in RED .. some ppl could digest it so that they can get pass in the tests . but if that is their aim in f6 , well .. none of my biznez , but as they are my classmates , im sincerely would like to encourage them o give them a hand [ not let then to copy ] ,but do advice them earlier . some ppl might said too , stpm is relax , juz look at me .. but the1 u look at , s/he is physically relax , but behind tat , maybe he study very hard daily , sleep only 3hrs ; or his/her result is so so ' pretty good ' . 2 kind of ppl in f6 . hmm .. me .. i play hard , i stduy hard .. LoL .. there is also classmates play hard all the time .. i think mostly .. they study hard too , exam season ^^ some of them include me are so pity , just do not have the other way to go , n then went into f6  .this is wat old folks talked about , ' every home has their own bible ' .  sigh .. too many things to say about my f6 life .. n i think not reli much ppl could understand it .. my advice is if u choose , do ur best , no regret . maybe it will a wrong way for u , but ur life is still long , it wont judge/ fix  ur whole life .

wahsai

hmm.. wat happened yah thesedayss ..seems many weird things happened nia ... hohoh .. well .. quite funny too ..